contemplative Category: Life
So after an extended absence from the world of MySpace blogging I make my illustrious return. Or so I'd like to think...
Often I've used this as a sounding board for current issues or items in the "soon to be accomplished" category. I've never really wrote extensivly about things from the past at all, or anything related to it. I wouldn't start off by saying that it's been troubled, but it's not been the easiest, of course then again I wouldn't change it for anything because I wouldn't be in the position I'm in now. Which is quite good. Following the broken English of my writting? Good...
For those of you still reading, I can say that leaving the flat lands of South Dakota for the not as flat lands of Missouri/Kansas have been cranking the gears on things that I've done and have not done in my hometown. I'm leaving some burnt bridges behind, and also some mended fences (that's the only country reference you'll get out of me, thank you). I've discovered that there isn't much you can do about all the people you've either hurt or left behind, other than take what you've learned and build a better life for yourself and those around you.
The strokes I'm using to paint this rambly picture are of course, very general as I don't really name names or anything of the sort. I know what I've done, I know what's been done to me and that is that, so to speak. I've described this move as the start of something different, which for the most part it will be. I'll still be who I am now, but just in a different location. I'm glad I'm doing it.
I'm not the person to really stroll down memory lane any longer, but I do still find a great deal of feeling for the people I've lost touch with that still have managed to like me over the years, abrasive and overbearing as I have been in the past. Saying that basically says that I've learned more in the last 2 years than I think I have my entire "adult" life. Do I sound like a person ready to move on? Nah, I'm just excited to be with the only person who has ever truly balanced me out on a full time basis.
For those that know me, I've dated a certain type of woman. This one, not the case. It's the type of personality that makes you want to tie up all the lose ends in your life and change your bad habbits to be a better person. Of course, that is all in the eye of the beholder (hey, had to use a metal line to counter the country). I'm not here to judge the actions of others, I just know now what's right for me. There is no direct correlation to the present and the past, and when you find that and can see the difference you don't let go man. You just hold on with both hands and never let go, no matter where that may take you.
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