I love the people I work with. I also love the fact that most people from my "red state" are just that. Now, I hate the catigorization of my state and everyone in it supporting the current regime and all it's cronies, let's just get that one out on the table. I love having to defend myself, however. Nothing excites me more when I'm in the middle of a discussion of something that I know more than that of a pedestrian level. I love it even more when I'm facing down the barrel of a gun of 6 of my closest collegues and I'm standing alone. Nothing gets me going in a political discussion more than having my back up against the wall and shooting down all of my would be detractors. Sometimes, the rush of it is so great, I feel like I should make a career out of it.
Today I learned that people did not pay attention in government or civics class in college or high school. It has also occured to me that people like to not read and just get everything they know about the world from the esteemed Fox News Channel. Today was the day that we were going to Clinton bash and blame him for terrorism and for the September 11th attacks. Now, with more that four years behind us, you'd think that some of the feelings may have died down from said event. Not so, and rightfully not so in my opinion. I will say this, that people that vote that are my age are dangerous people. People that voted for President Bush are people that, for the most part, have not been paying attention. Now, I've been quoted as saying that I voted for Bush this year, and I know I have. Basically it has been to avoid funny looks and major discussions where I didn't want them. However, now I'm not so inclined to go that route.
This debate today was a 2 hour free for all this afternoon with everyone blaming Bill Clinton for the job that was carried out on 9/11. If anyone had the slightest clue as to what had happened, I guarante that no one would be on the opposite side of the fence as me. Honestly. It would take to long to transcribe everything from that lengthy discussion, way too long. I will just say this, that every time they accused Clinton or his administration for something based on nothing (or what they heard from some conservative hack on Fox) I backed up with fact and source by who said it, and when it was said. If you look at the money that was spent of terrorism funding and counterterrorism funding during the years of 1993 to 2000 you would change your tune. The long and short of it is, is that Bush and his people were handed the keys to a brand new Ferrari and didn't even open the doors to smell the leather. The Homeland Security Councel? Thought up by to CLINTON appointee's, not anyone on Bush's list. I didn't even get into the two previous presidents' track record. More American and American soldiers on Regan's watch than Bush Sr. and Clinton combinded. God bless the Great Communicator.
I would love to go on for days and days about facts and why I'm right (because I am), but it's just not worth it. My point is this...All I know is that political discussions are completely wasted on most people that I am surrounded by. It's very sad, that people are able to vote knowing so little. Someday someone will ask where it all went wrong. Fear is a very powerful thing, and you are all getting a big dose of it when you turn on the TV. The way everyone talks, it's the end of the world right now. The world is what you go out and make of it, not what Bill O'Reily and Sean Hannity tell you.
Yes, the album below is a bit juvinille, but I never really grew out of my taste for heavy music sometimes. And I think the title is appropriate for the content of this post.
P.S. I love the fact that neo conservatives like Ann Coulter are now retracting how they feel about Bush because he's a big idiot. If you can't agree with that, you have been living in Outer Mongolia since 5 minutes before August. I.E. hiring unqualified people into the Supreme Court, and bumbling through Katrina and Rita rescue operations.
By the way, if you don't know who Ann Coulter is, aka Satan in a blond wig, I'll pimp her website a bit www.anncoulter.com
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Fear and Loathing in South Dakota
Every day is something different, and yet it is all very much the same. You wake up, you get ready to face the day, you live it, then you prepare for the next day. How much you live in the moment is up to you every day. You decide whether or not you keep your thoughts and are mindful of the present, or you look too much to the past and reminisce just a little too much. Well, here has been my issue. I live too much for the future. I've been so concerned with what is down the road that I can't even see what is right in front of me. I'm so "futurecentric" that I think I somewhat sabotage the present at the expense of making what's on the horizon a better place. I've come to the conclusion that this is the wrong way to live. There is only so much that is within your grasp or power and any given moment. There is even less that can sometimes be harnessed for the future. My new outlook is that you cannot build a better future if you aren't paying attention to the road that you are paving right now. Sounds sort of corny doesn't it? I guess if there is one thing I do right it's not take myself too seriously.
I'm a control freak. These days, I can't tell if I'm correcting that issue, or if I'm just doing a good job of concealing it. A few things were out of my immediate control the past few days. One was situational, the other was internal. People that are not close to me will have no idea what I am talking about, because they don't see the controlling part of me because, quite frankly, only the people that I love the most have ever been privy to one of my biggest vices. Maybe not exactly a vice, but the definition is all what you make of the word. It's hard when you really just have to let things be and take their course. If a certain thing is meant to happen, then it will. If it isn't, then of course it won't. It doesn't take a genius to come to this conclusion.
What I am vowing to do is to not place myself in the situations that I put myself in sometimes. How much can you control? What do you have to relinquish to really push forward? I'm trying very hard to find a balance somedays. I'll say that the situational issue was involving someone I care very deeply for, and the internal struggle was trying to determine how to handle the situation. I've never been a person to think out how I'm going to react or feel. To give a small detail, something somewhat terrifying was going on at the moment, and I did nothing really but fuel the fire at the time. Of course after things had died down all was forgiven, however living in the moment you have to be sure to monitor what you are doing and know how it is going to affect the other person. I slipped up, I didn't do excatly what I set out to do. Basically, I let my emotions get the better of me for the first time with this person. It's really not as huge of a bad situation as it may seem, however this is where my fork in the road is.
If I had to go back and look into all the relationships that I've ever had and tried to find a point where things started to slip away from me, and my general insanity started to take a toll on who I was with, I couldn't find one darn issue that started the ball rolling. Now, I've been doing things differently with this one and I really see no reason to change at this point. I'm going to remember how I felt when the situation happened, I'm going to remember what it felt like when she told me how she felt afterwards, and I'm going to remember what I felt like a couple hours later when I talked to her again.
Have you even been sitting watching something on television and it was too embarassing or uncomfortable to watch, so much so that you had to change the channel? I've been doing that in real life for a very long time. Now it's time that I sort of put the remote down and sit on my hands and live in the moment and not dodge bullets. This isn't to say that I'm going to dwell on every little thing that happens, not at all. I'm just going to do less ignoring. How's that?
And now for a less vague tangent...
We get precious few days together every month, and I'll have to admit that a lot of the time I was down there last I could only really focus on how much it would hurt to leave. That started the day I got there until I left. I spent almost the entire time worrying about how much I would miss her while I was actually with her. How insane is that? I can tell you that it's not the way I want to spend the rest of our time together, and I'm glad the lightbulb when on over my head, because I want to get the most out of every minute and second that I am with this person, not worry about how it's going to be when I'm not. It's unfair to her, and it's unfair to me also. I don't want to get to the point of thinking that it's too hard and not worth the effort that both of us are putting into this relationship. This is one of the most positive (ok fine, I've got to stop downplaying this) is the most positive thing that has happened to me ever. I'm not going to let my BS stand in the way of something that is right for once in my life.
Am I giving myself too much of a pep talk on this? Does it seem like I have to pump myself up to be ready for the next several months to a year? No. This is me correcting 10 years worth of mistakes and miscues and turning something great into something that can last for a very very (I think you know what I mean) long time. I know this is going to be vague to almost anyone that reads this, but I hope your are catching the point of this and not just trying to get the juicy scoop on what's going on with your's truely (har har). I just feel awake in this one, I don't feel like I'm just going through the motions anymore. I finally feel just good and alive these days, and it's really a wonderful feeling. I just want it to last, that's all...
I'm a control freak. These days, I can't tell if I'm correcting that issue, or if I'm just doing a good job of concealing it. A few things were out of my immediate control the past few days. One was situational, the other was internal. People that are not close to me will have no idea what I am talking about, because they don't see the controlling part of me because, quite frankly, only the people that I love the most have ever been privy to one of my biggest vices. Maybe not exactly a vice, but the definition is all what you make of the word. It's hard when you really just have to let things be and take their course. If a certain thing is meant to happen, then it will. If it isn't, then of course it won't. It doesn't take a genius to come to this conclusion.
What I am vowing to do is to not place myself in the situations that I put myself in sometimes. How much can you control? What do you have to relinquish to really push forward? I'm trying very hard to find a balance somedays. I'll say that the situational issue was involving someone I care very deeply for, and the internal struggle was trying to determine how to handle the situation. I've never been a person to think out how I'm going to react or feel. To give a small detail, something somewhat terrifying was going on at the moment, and I did nothing really but fuel the fire at the time. Of course after things had died down all was forgiven, however living in the moment you have to be sure to monitor what you are doing and know how it is going to affect the other person. I slipped up, I didn't do excatly what I set out to do. Basically, I let my emotions get the better of me for the first time with this person. It's really not as huge of a bad situation as it may seem, however this is where my fork in the road is.
If I had to go back and look into all the relationships that I've ever had and tried to find a point where things started to slip away from me, and my general insanity started to take a toll on who I was with, I couldn't find one darn issue that started the ball rolling. Now, I've been doing things differently with this one and I really see no reason to change at this point. I'm going to remember how I felt when the situation happened, I'm going to remember what it felt like when she told me how she felt afterwards, and I'm going to remember what I felt like a couple hours later when I talked to her again.
Have you even been sitting watching something on television and it was too embarassing or uncomfortable to watch, so much so that you had to change the channel? I've been doing that in real life for a very long time. Now it's time that I sort of put the remote down and sit on my hands and live in the moment and not dodge bullets. This isn't to say that I'm going to dwell on every little thing that happens, not at all. I'm just going to do less ignoring. How's that?
And now for a less vague tangent...
We get precious few days together every month, and I'll have to admit that a lot of the time I was down there last I could only really focus on how much it would hurt to leave. That started the day I got there until I left. I spent almost the entire time worrying about how much I would miss her while I was actually with her. How insane is that? I can tell you that it's not the way I want to spend the rest of our time together, and I'm glad the lightbulb when on over my head, because I want to get the most out of every minute and second that I am with this person, not worry about how it's going to be when I'm not. It's unfair to her, and it's unfair to me also. I don't want to get to the point of thinking that it's too hard and not worth the effort that both of us are putting into this relationship. This is one of the most positive (ok fine, I've got to stop downplaying this) is the most positive thing that has happened to me ever. I'm not going to let my BS stand in the way of something that is right for once in my life.
Am I giving myself too much of a pep talk on this? Does it seem like I have to pump myself up to be ready for the next several months to a year? No. This is me correcting 10 years worth of mistakes and miscues and turning something great into something that can last for a very very (I think you know what I mean) long time. I know this is going to be vague to almost anyone that reads this, but I hope your are catching the point of this and not just trying to get the juicy scoop on what's going on with your's truely (har har). I just feel awake in this one, I don't feel like I'm just going through the motions anymore. I finally feel just good and alive these days, and it's really a wonderful feeling. I just want it to last, that's all...
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Increasingly uncomfortably unfortunatly at home...
...which I guess isn't a really bad thing. It's just the more and more my travels take me south of the border (Missouri that is) I feel more and more distant to my native state. It's almost like my body and my brain are hopelessly in South Dakota for the next 10 months to a year and my heart stays in Kansas City every time I come back. Of course my family and friends and all my creature comforts are here in good ol' SoDak, it's just that i'm ready to leave now. The grand master plan is to save gobs of money for the move and other logical steps in my move. So, while the time will more than likely go be slowly, I know that when the time gets here, it's going to be here in no time and couldn't have gotten here fast enough.
I know it's going to be a big adjustment, I just want to be ready in every way. I know you can't prepare for everything, it's just the things that are within my reach I want to be in order.
I don't think I'm doing this on purpose, but I really have a hard time working up the desire to make much of an effort to hang out with friends on a regular basis. I've been keeping to myself a lot lately. It's not because of you know who, I think there is more to it than that. I just think that (how typical) at 25 I'm finally ready for that next step in life. You don't see it coming, you just sort of fall into it. Every step has been exactly what I've hoped for, except for it being a little more complicated that the average Joe's life. I'm ok with that, the last 10 years have been nothing but normal for this chap.
I know I'm in a good situation though, I don't want to discount that and my logical side won't let the conductor of Fantasy Land get too out of control. Although the more and more I see her and the connection grows, the wiff of Fantasy Land gets increasingly harder to ignore. I'll just have to do a good job of staying in control (to an extent, of course you always have to let the situation dictate too). You just have to man the ship the best way you know how, and I'm starting to trust myself a little more as the days/weeks/months go on. I'm confident in what we've gained and accomplished so far. I'll have to tell you it's further along and better than I thought it would be the first time I went to see her after 4 years.
I think one of these days I will break down and post what happened over the course of the last (wow!) 6 years of knowing this person. However, knowing me and my protective self, I doubt it.
Hey, have to keep my "readers" coming back right??
I know it's going to be a big adjustment, I just want to be ready in every way. I know you can't prepare for everything, it's just the things that are within my reach I want to be in order.
I don't think I'm doing this on purpose, but I really have a hard time working up the desire to make much of an effort to hang out with friends on a regular basis. I've been keeping to myself a lot lately. It's not because of you know who, I think there is more to it than that. I just think that (how typical) at 25 I'm finally ready for that next step in life. You don't see it coming, you just sort of fall into it. Every step has been exactly what I've hoped for, except for it being a little more complicated that the average Joe's life. I'm ok with that, the last 10 years have been nothing but normal for this chap.
I know I'm in a good situation though, I don't want to discount that and my logical side won't let the conductor of Fantasy Land get too out of control. Although the more and more I see her and the connection grows, the wiff of Fantasy Land gets increasingly harder to ignore. I'll just have to do a good job of staying in control (to an extent, of course you always have to let the situation dictate too). You just have to man the ship the best way you know how, and I'm starting to trust myself a little more as the days/weeks/months go on. I'm confident in what we've gained and accomplished so far. I'll have to tell you it's further along and better than I thought it would be the first time I went to see her after 4 years.
I think one of these days I will break down and post what happened over the course of the last (wow!) 6 years of knowing this person. However, knowing me and my protective self, I doubt it.
Hey, have to keep my "readers" coming back right??
Friday, October 14, 2005
Blood on the Inside
So here is a little ditty about me. Today was a day that went completly downhill from the moment it started. Here we go...
First, I woke up 10 minutes before my alarm went off. If I know the day is going to go bad, that's usually the first sign. It's usually a sign of me being anxious about something. This week, it could be any number of things. I honestly don't remember doing a single thing before I got to my desk and turned the computer on, I could have showered, maybe I didn't, who knows. Did I remember my lunch? Who knows that either. My manager is pretty entertaining, he sounds like that guy from VH1's Best Week Ever the has the gap in his teeth and going bald. He's the one that's way too excited about everything. He's going to the Phillipines next Thursday and that's all he can talk about. It's a great opportunity, they almost sent me to India last October and I was all for it, it's just that they scrapped the idea two weeks before I was supposed to leave, so I had a passport and visa for nothing. I've since lost my passport, funny huh?
Anyway, today was not a good day for Zach/peer relations. Everything that everyone said to me today drove me absolutely bananas. Usually I'm not like that and am pretty easy to get along and deal with. However, today you didn't want to know me. I was pretty short with all my customers that I dealt with today. The ones I'd talked to before I'm sure were wondering what was up with my today, but oh well.
There is this girl that sits behind me, she's very nice and I really enjoy talking to her during the day. Today, it was a bit of a different story. I guess when you are irritated she has one of those personalities that really enhance your mood. I think she picked up on this late in the day, drew me a little picture of a happy face on a sticky note and put it on my day planner and left me alone until the end of the day. Smart girl.
The one that sits across from me constantly bugged me today about how hard it is to have to leave my girlfriend everytime I see her. Thanks, like it's not hard enough to begin with the week of leaving KC, but she just would not shut up about it. Like I don't miss her enough as it is, I have to have co-workers rub salt in the wound. It makes it a little harder to slip back into the normal daily routine when all I want to do is walk out, gas up, and spend a few more days with her, but anyway, that's another entry in itself.
The end of the day was just more grating that the first half. I have no idea why, it's just when I get in a mood, everyone is annoying. I really hate being in that frame of mind, not exactly what I enjoy. I think I did a decent job of putting up a defensive persona today though.
I'll tell you what, I haven't gone a Saturday without doing something in awhile. I can bet you that come 3:31 I won't be doing a darn thing until I go back in Monday afternoon until noon til 4 or so...I'm such a slacker.
First, I woke up 10 minutes before my alarm went off. If I know the day is going to go bad, that's usually the first sign. It's usually a sign of me being anxious about something. This week, it could be any number of things. I honestly don't remember doing a single thing before I got to my desk and turned the computer on, I could have showered, maybe I didn't, who knows. Did I remember my lunch? Who knows that either. My manager is pretty entertaining, he sounds like that guy from VH1's Best Week Ever the has the gap in his teeth and going bald. He's the one that's way too excited about everything. He's going to the Phillipines next Thursday and that's all he can talk about. It's a great opportunity, they almost sent me to India last October and I was all for it, it's just that they scrapped the idea two weeks before I was supposed to leave, so I had a passport and visa for nothing. I've since lost my passport, funny huh?
Anyway, today was not a good day for Zach/peer relations. Everything that everyone said to me today drove me absolutely bananas. Usually I'm not like that and am pretty easy to get along and deal with. However, today you didn't want to know me. I was pretty short with all my customers that I dealt with today. The ones I'd talked to before I'm sure were wondering what was up with my today, but oh well.
There is this girl that sits behind me, she's very nice and I really enjoy talking to her during the day. Today, it was a bit of a different story. I guess when you are irritated she has one of those personalities that really enhance your mood. I think she picked up on this late in the day, drew me a little picture of a happy face on a sticky note and put it on my day planner and left me alone until the end of the day. Smart girl.
The one that sits across from me constantly bugged me today about how hard it is to have to leave my girlfriend everytime I see her. Thanks, like it's not hard enough to begin with the week of leaving KC, but she just would not shut up about it. Like I don't miss her enough as it is, I have to have co-workers rub salt in the wound. It makes it a little harder to slip back into the normal daily routine when all I want to do is walk out, gas up, and spend a few more days with her, but anyway, that's another entry in itself.
The end of the day was just more grating that the first half. I have no idea why, it's just when I get in a mood, everyone is annoying. I really hate being in that frame of mind, not exactly what I enjoy. I think I did a decent job of putting up a defensive persona today though.
I'll tell you what, I haven't gone a Saturday without doing something in awhile. I can bet you that come 3:31 I won't be doing a darn thing until I go back in Monday afternoon until noon til 4 or so...I'm such a slacker.
Monday, October 3, 2005
Stay Out
Ok, so this will be short, sweet and for my eyes only...
I want to use this as a vantage point for future reference. So my girlfriend of 5 or 6 months/friend for 6 years, has this diary on a website. She's been keeping it for quite some time. I always used to read it when we were together, but I hadn't kept up with it until we got back together. She locked it up almost be request because I didn't think I was ready to read what went on before me. Well, she undid it today and it took me not less than 15 minutes of reading to discover something that I didn't want to. It's this guy she used to date, and that she's still friends with. Is it weird that for 2 minutes every once in awhile that this bothered me before? Now it's sort of creeping in and bugging me even more. It has nothing to do with the guy himself, i've never been a jealous guy, I know who I am and what I'm worth. It's just how she feels, that's what gets me I'm thinking.
I've been left by someone for an ex when after we had moved in together and things had been patched up and we were moving to the point of getting back to being very good for each other again. Just like that, poof, I was on the outside and wondering where I had gone wrong. So excuse me for being a little hyper-sensitive about this issue.
I don't want her to stop being friends with this person. I firmly believe in the fact that friends are friends, and you can't come between that, especially good friends. I'm just torn right now, and the fact that there is distance between us makes it that much worse.
I have a complex about not being able to measure up to the people that I love the most. I'm not sure that I can provide everything that this person deserves, or at least more than what the other guy can do.
I don't want to push the issue too much and cause a rift, but I always have to know, I always have to dig a little bit deeper. I've always sacrificed personal piece of mind in my relationships than for the greater good of the union itself. I guess that makes me a selfesh person. Or does it?
For the longest time I've always relied on the prospective of "looking out for #1, because no one else is going to do this." When am I going to abandon this and put down the weight of the world, and open myself to start a life with someone else. Maybe the only reason this whole thing bothers me is because it's pointing out one of my greatest shortcomings, and it hurts. I've been carrying hate and anger for too long. I just pray that I've figured out how to purge some of that and how to contain it when I do get mad, I really am dreading this person seeing my darker side. She says she wants to see all sides of me, but I don't know how ready she is sometimes.
Now that I've written that, I now know that what I read isn't what is bothering me, it's me that is bothering me. It seems like my journey isn't done quite yet. Maybe the curse of distance in this relationship is a bit of a blessing in disugise, so I can relinquish the stain that I've carried with me for so long. I want so badly to just release all of it. From my parents divorce, to being degrated by my father, physcially and emtionally, from even being picked on to being beat up by the kids in my neighborhood. I know it sounds like I should be on Dr. Phil or something, but you can't imagine having your ass kicked from the age of 6 to 13, having to go out and deal with that from the older kids in your neighborhood, to having the sanctuary of your home being anything but that, you know what I mean I'm sure.
I'm not saying I've had the toughest life, but I'm waiting for something to pan out that is positive. As I've said, my brother finding my family is the only positive thing to happen in a very very long time. Hopefully this thing with Stephanie will yield the same results, that's what I'm really hoping for. I'm not pushing it, because it seems to be working out naturally, and for that I'm happy. I just have to realize that I'm not and haven't been the only person in her life, just like I needed to get that fact through my head with all the others. I don't want to point fingers, but she can hardly stand to hear about anything that had to do with past girlfriends, much less read what I did tonight. But now after typing this, it's fine. It was a classic Zach over reacation, and I'm glad it's taken me only 20 minutes to realize this rather than days months or years, like it used to.
At the risk of being more rambly, I'm done.
I want to use this as a vantage point for future reference. So my girlfriend of 5 or 6 months/friend for 6 years, has this diary on a website. She's been keeping it for quite some time. I always used to read it when we were together, but I hadn't kept up with it until we got back together. She locked it up almost be request because I didn't think I was ready to read what went on before me. Well, she undid it today and it took me not less than 15 minutes of reading to discover something that I didn't want to. It's this guy she used to date, and that she's still friends with. Is it weird that for 2 minutes every once in awhile that this bothered me before? Now it's sort of creeping in and bugging me even more. It has nothing to do with the guy himself, i've never been a jealous guy, I know who I am and what I'm worth. It's just how she feels, that's what gets me I'm thinking.
I've been left by someone for an ex when after we had moved in together and things had been patched up and we were moving to the point of getting back to being very good for each other again. Just like that, poof, I was on the outside and wondering where I had gone wrong. So excuse me for being a little hyper-sensitive about this issue.
I don't want her to stop being friends with this person. I firmly believe in the fact that friends are friends, and you can't come between that, especially good friends. I'm just torn right now, and the fact that there is distance between us makes it that much worse.
I have a complex about not being able to measure up to the people that I love the most. I'm not sure that I can provide everything that this person deserves, or at least more than what the other guy can do.
I don't want to push the issue too much and cause a rift, but I always have to know, I always have to dig a little bit deeper. I've always sacrificed personal piece of mind in my relationships than for the greater good of the union itself. I guess that makes me a selfesh person. Or does it?
For the longest time I've always relied on the prospective of "looking out for #1, because no one else is going to do this." When am I going to abandon this and put down the weight of the world, and open myself to start a life with someone else. Maybe the only reason this whole thing bothers me is because it's pointing out one of my greatest shortcomings, and it hurts. I've been carrying hate and anger for too long. I just pray that I've figured out how to purge some of that and how to contain it when I do get mad, I really am dreading this person seeing my darker side. She says she wants to see all sides of me, but I don't know how ready she is sometimes.
Now that I've written that, I now know that what I read isn't what is bothering me, it's me that is bothering me. It seems like my journey isn't done quite yet. Maybe the curse of distance in this relationship is a bit of a blessing in disugise, so I can relinquish the stain that I've carried with me for so long. I want so badly to just release all of it. From my parents divorce, to being degrated by my father, physcially and emtionally, from even being picked on to being beat up by the kids in my neighborhood. I know it sounds like I should be on Dr. Phil or something, but you can't imagine having your ass kicked from the age of 6 to 13, having to go out and deal with that from the older kids in your neighborhood, to having the sanctuary of your home being anything but that, you know what I mean I'm sure.
I'm not saying I've had the toughest life, but I'm waiting for something to pan out that is positive. As I've said, my brother finding my family is the only positive thing to happen in a very very long time. Hopefully this thing with Stephanie will yield the same results, that's what I'm really hoping for. I'm not pushing it, because it seems to be working out naturally, and for that I'm happy. I just have to realize that I'm not and haven't been the only person in her life, just like I needed to get that fact through my head with all the others. I don't want to point fingers, but she can hardly stand to hear about anything that had to do with past girlfriends, much less read what I did tonight. But now after typing this, it's fine. It was a classic Zach over reacation, and I'm glad it's taken me only 20 minutes to realize this rather than days months or years, like it used to.
At the risk of being more rambly, I'm done.
Sunday, October 2, 2005
So let the countdown begin
Ok, so how obvious can one post on my blog get, but I'm not sure if I care that much. I'm excited to go and see my girlfriend this weekend, what of it? Sure, it's going to make the week go slow, and the fact that I'm going to make up my hours during the week rather than just take vactaion time will make said week even longer. That's ok, I really don't mind that much, I know the end result when I get down on Friday afternoon will make it worth it. I could go on and on about how excited I am, but who wants to read that? Well, maybe one lucky reader out there 
Today at work the entire system went down, so I only had to work half a day. Hurray! Not much else is going on, just wanted to kill a little time and give you all a little update. Aren't I nice?
You also may be wondering what else I'm excited about this week, well the new Liz Phair CD comes out tomorrow, which always gives reason to celebrate. Along with the album listed below, which is quite tasty. It'll be a Best Buy day tomorrow!
Today at work the entire system went down, so I only had to work half a day. Hurray! Not much else is going on, just wanted to kill a little time and give you all a little update. Aren't I nice?
You also may be wondering what else I'm excited about this week, well the new Liz Phair CD comes out tomorrow, which always gives reason to celebrate. Along with the album listed below, which is quite tasty. It'll be a Best Buy day tomorrow!
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