What is it about nostalgia that turns people on? Do you need to be a nostalgic person to find meaning in your past? I never understood people who were unable to draw some value from the places they have been. Maybe there are just some people who never admit it. There seems to be a certain sexiness to "living in the moment" and not being caught up in the past or the future. I would say that I am present with other people, but left to my own devices I spend a good portion of time reminiscing.
I would suppose that for most people who feel a sense of connection to events in their past they have certain touchstones that invoke feelings and memories. My gateway into these happenings is music. When I phase into new artists and albums I haven't heard, it seems like I am focused on forging ahead. When I dig through the library of my past, it isn't normally just to hear a tune I can't get out of my head.
People and places are trapped inside songs from a specific era in my life. When I listen to Liz Phair, I'm not just listening to "Whip Smart" because I enjoy it. Well, I do enjoy it, but I'm in my basement room at 1113 South Joliet Avenue in Sioux Falls, South Dakota. I have long hair, I'm skinny, awkward and meeting new high school people who came from other middle schools. I'm meeting people I'm still friends with now, but I see them in the context of the time when sitting down with Liz. I'm in Sarah Keyman's basement, hanging out with Brienne and Kari, two people I'm still "friends" with. One more so than the other, but that isn't the point. The point is I can't just listen to this album and be detached, it has too much meaning. The music reminds me of the sounds and even the smells of the house 15 years later.
Five years ago I set out to make a compilation of music. I wanted to start it at a major fork in the road of my life. When I met the first girl I think I ever really loved, or at least took the time to try, and the splintering of my parents' marriage. Sort of the end of my "age of innocence." I figured it was significant at the time, but just never really knew why. Raging emotions, loss and discovery are major components of any teenagers life. My emotions were accelerated by the loss of trust in the failed marriage of my parents, and trying to recapture it in the powder keg of a teenage relationship. Maybe I'm too self-absorbed, and no one else looks at life like this with intense reflection and philosophical thought, but for me it is inescapable.
I don't have albums in my closet (literally), I have access to a time machine and to all the events in my life. Over Christmas break, along with cleaning and hanging drywall in our basement, I am going through all my old music and compiling them by these things which took place. I'm not sure why, but something happened with me over the past few months. I'm not sure what. Is it my quickly approaching 30th birthday? Is it because within X amount of years I'll be a father? I don't know. Somehow I doubt it. I don't fear either milestones. I think it is merely a coincidence, although my sister and her years of scholastic work would probably say otherwise...
I can't help but imagine a person who is into their life as much as I am would do it for any other reason than some self-gratifying and self-aggrandizing purpose. I feel the need to catalog my life, and I do it according to music. I'll let you know how it turns out.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
Another Rebirth
So if you found your way back here, thanks for checking this blog out again. School and work has been a hurdle this semester to say the least, so the updates are few and far between on all points in my vast blogging empire (wink). I overextended myself quite a bit this fall, however I think I'll make it out in one piece, and the spring is shaping up to be more relaxed and interesting.
I also shed the blog of the great people who contributed for a spell here in recent months. Number one is that the participants are on our new Kansas City Politico blog that we will be getting off the ground with the new year. Number two is with the track record and nearly five year history of this being a personal blog, I figured it was time to get back to basics.
The blog, as some of you might remember, used to reside on my twice defunct MySpace page. To be quite honest, part of me wants to abandon Facebook as well. However, what keeps me hanging on is the direct communication between friends and family members I have limited face to face contact with. I'm not a Mafioso superstar, nor am I a prolific virtual farmer. I keeps it real.
Checkup
This semester I've found myself, I think. I've always known deep down I'm a writer. Now, whether I'm a good writer is yet to be seen. But the idea of me as a photographer or partaking in photography is something of a bug I've caught in the past couple months. I always saw it as something I had to do, or endure, when looking at my audit at Park. Now, it seems like I've find a bit of a passion. I haven't jumped in head first, or even feet first. I'd say my toe is in the water checking the temperature. I have no idea how I would use it, or what I could do with it. Sometimes it is good enough to be cognizant of something raw and new. There aren't many times in life when people can harness something like this and have the latitude to move with it. Right now, I'm just enjoying the ride.
It is, to my dismay, my season of a dosing of reality. I thought my time management skills were sharpened to a fine point, but it seems like next year I have some work to do in that arena. This is fine, because when I get comfortable and 'good' at something, I get lazy. Life has a funny way of making you evolve.
The Homestead
Things at home are evening out. I could do better to not be so snappy with Stephanie, and she's being strong and constantly showing she is the more mature person by being as patient as any human being has even been with a stressed out me. I haven't had time for anything other than things that are not particularly fun, so the residual frustration gets dumped on her. I am currently penning a document to the Vatican for early sainthood. Seriously.
My dogs are eating my house. I just thought I had to throw it out there. But they are the highlights of my life, other than my wife. It sounds cheesy, and maybe it's because I don't have children, but there is something to caring for something that is dependent on you. Missy is still digging, still posing as a menacing trickster in adorable fur, and Ted is my boy. He's over the 100 pound mark, as tall as I am and has the winningest personality of any dog I've met. He's the dude.
Anyway, a return to my old ways with this post. Completely self-absorbed like blogs are supposed to be. With finals looming I can't guarantee that I'll show my face until after the dust has settled, but there will be more frequency since I know the direction everything is going in.
Goodnight.
I also shed the blog of the great people who contributed for a spell here in recent months. Number one is that the participants are on our new Kansas City Politico blog that we will be getting off the ground with the new year. Number two is with the track record and nearly five year history of this being a personal blog, I figured it was time to get back to basics.
The blog, as some of you might remember, used to reside on my twice defunct MySpace page. To be quite honest, part of me wants to abandon Facebook as well. However, what keeps me hanging on is the direct communication between friends and family members I have limited face to face contact with. I'm not a Mafioso superstar, nor am I a prolific virtual farmer. I keeps it real.
Checkup
This semester I've found myself, I think. I've always known deep down I'm a writer. Now, whether I'm a good writer is yet to be seen. But the idea of me as a photographer or partaking in photography is something of a bug I've caught in the past couple months. I always saw it as something I had to do, or endure, when looking at my audit at Park. Now, it seems like I've find a bit of a passion. I haven't jumped in head first, or even feet first. I'd say my toe is in the water checking the temperature. I have no idea how I would use it, or what I could do with it. Sometimes it is good enough to be cognizant of something raw and new. There aren't many times in life when people can harness something like this and have the latitude to move with it. Right now, I'm just enjoying the ride.
It is, to my dismay, my season of a dosing of reality. I thought my time management skills were sharpened to a fine point, but it seems like next year I have some work to do in that arena. This is fine, because when I get comfortable and 'good' at something, I get lazy. Life has a funny way of making you evolve.
The Homestead
Things at home are evening out. I could do better to not be so snappy with Stephanie, and she's being strong and constantly showing she is the more mature person by being as patient as any human being has even been with a stressed out me. I haven't had time for anything other than things that are not particularly fun, so the residual frustration gets dumped on her. I am currently penning a document to the Vatican for early sainthood. Seriously.
My dogs are eating my house. I just thought I had to throw it out there. But they are the highlights of my life, other than my wife. It sounds cheesy, and maybe it's because I don't have children, but there is something to caring for something that is dependent on you. Missy is still digging, still posing as a menacing trickster in adorable fur, and Ted is my boy. He's over the 100 pound mark, as tall as I am and has the winningest personality of any dog I've met. He's the dude.
Anyway, a return to my old ways with this post. Completely self-absorbed like blogs are supposed to be. With finals looming I can't guarantee that I'll show my face until after the dust has settled, but there will be more frequency since I know the direction everything is going in.
Goodnight.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Back To Work: Boring Me
I haven't posted on the personal blog in awhile, so I figured what better way to make my illustrious return than writing about me and what I've been up to.
I'm knee deep in school and work, with little time for much of anything else in between. When I do get some spare time I watch some television and do some reading. I've made a few trips up to Lincoln, Nebraska to watch some football.
Some things I have been enjoying have been David Cross's "I Drink For a Reason," watching "Bored to Death" and "Dexter." Of course I'm never without my new iPod Touch and my litter of Podcasts. Some of my favorites are "WTF with Marc Maron," "Wait, Wait...Don't Tell Me," and of course my old standby "Smodcast" which is director Kevin Smith and his producer Scott Mosier talking for an hour or so. It's funny, trust me.
I realize this post was very boring. And short. Boring and short, just like me. But it's been awhile and I'm scared, so next time will be better. I promise :)
I'm knee deep in school and work, with little time for much of anything else in between. When I do get some spare time I watch some television and do some reading. I've made a few trips up to Lincoln, Nebraska to watch some football.
Some things I have been enjoying have been David Cross's "I Drink For a Reason," watching "Bored to Death" and "Dexter." Of course I'm never without my new iPod Touch and my litter of Podcasts. Some of my favorites are "WTF with Marc Maron," "Wait, Wait...Don't Tell Me," and of course my old standby "Smodcast" which is director Kevin Smith and his producer Scott Mosier talking for an hour or so. It's funny, trust me.
I realize this post was very boring. And short. Boring and short, just like me. But it's been awhile and I'm scared, so next time will be better. I promise :)
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I Am Trying to Break Your Heart
This past Sunday morning was a pretty rough one for me. Simply put, I mixed a few too many cocktails with several pounds of assorted meat the night before. It was quite the binge, I'd say. When I awoke Sunday morning (at 4:30AM, alone, fully clothed and lying diagonally on the bed, mind you), I felt less than horrible.
That aforementioned Saturday, I had hosted a party for some "friends" at work. Bad idea...I won't make the same mistake again. Essentially, these "friends" just wanted a place to get drunk and stupid. Meanwhile, I found myself wandering around my own house, trying to talk to all the different co-workers, and feeling completely alienated when doing so. I'm not really a part of their clique at work...I fully accept that, but it was, after all, my house and I shouldn't feel alienated there, right? Right.
I remember being eighteen or nineteen or twenty-two (sort of) and attending parties of this caliber. They weren't really fun then, either, but they were at least a bit more acceptable. It was always sort of an "I don't care who I'm with as long as I'm drunk/stoned/whatever" atmosphere. I like to think I've grown way up. Fortunately, I've maintained some friendships from that era of my life. Unfortunately, there are still people out there my age and older who are a part of that crowd.
None of this is really news to me and probably isn't worth a blog post either. It was an eye-opening experience, nonetheless.
For future reference, when the wife and I have people over it will be a two-couple max at a time. So, Stephanie and Zach (if you're reading this), be prepared to come entertain us in the near future; we'll return the favor by providing you our full attention. Sorry, Zach--no Bacon Explosion--ever again.
BFF,
JFW
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
You Say Tomato...
Do you ever have one of those days where you feel stuck in the middle? Most of the time I feel like a man shouting in an echo chamber when it comes to my conservative versus liberal friends and family members. I'll get emails from my Dad telling me how my guns I don't own will be taken away. I used to get emails saying how George Bush was listening to my phone calls and I should be worried. Because telling my wife to pick up bananas at the store is important information.
It's a culture of fear, and it is choking us to death. The public at large is taking their eye off the ball while casting stones at one another. Middle age white men line the streets and take the day off work to protest tax increases that didn't, and might not happen. Gay men and women march to protest their right to be married. Why are we waiting for a pat on the butt from a government we all say we don't trust? Why do we feel the need to be validated by something we dislike?
More questions than answers, which is a roadblock for everyone. The path to resolution is paved with an easy answer these days. Watching white men over history try and protect what their idea of American should be is appalling in history books. It's even more astounding watching this generation claw at it as it slips away. Latina women on the Supreme Court, a black guy with supposedly no birth certificate in the White House, and affirmative action taking their jobs. It's enough to make you think we white guys are about to be lined up next to dinosaurs and Dodo birds.
Back to everyone freaking out and attacking the people on the other side of the fence... I'll leave you with this. When talking politics these days, it's not about which political party is going to screw you. It's about when and both sides with their hands on the hot poker in your backs side will choose to shove it in.
It's a culture of fear, and it is choking us to death. The public at large is taking their eye off the ball while casting stones at one another. Middle age white men line the streets and take the day off work to protest tax increases that didn't, and might not happen. Gay men and women march to protest their right to be married. Why are we waiting for a pat on the butt from a government we all say we don't trust? Why do we feel the need to be validated by something we dislike?
More questions than answers, which is a roadblock for everyone. The path to resolution is paved with an easy answer these days. Watching white men over history try and protect what their idea of American should be is appalling in history books. It's even more astounding watching this generation claw at it as it slips away. Latina women on the Supreme Court, a black guy with supposedly no birth certificate in the White House, and affirmative action taking their jobs. It's enough to make you think we white guys are about to be lined up next to dinosaurs and Dodo birds.
Back to everyone freaking out and attacking the people on the other side of the fence... I'll leave you with this. When talking politics these days, it's not about which political party is going to screw you. It's about when and both sides with their hands on the hot poker in your backs side will choose to shove it in.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
I've got something to look forward to.
Going to see Neko Case with my wife coming up later this month, and I'm pretty pumped up about it. Here is a 20 minute interview with her. The DJ, or host if you will, is your garden variety broadcast douchebag, but the live performance with her bandmates is pretty cool. If you've never heard Ms. Case, or didn't know who she is, you should check her out.
Enjoy!
Enjoy!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Eureka!
Before I threw my newest issue of Maxim into the big blue bin in the garage, I thought I could get some use out of it. I didn't want my last post to be the last things we said to each other, I figured since we were both adults we could figure some sort of common ground out. So we went around the house to see what sort of mischief we could create or functional relationship we could develop.
The first thing we tried to do was see if we could get Ted a second pillow for when he is not in the living room. He's a big fan of sleeping since he is growing so much, and he does enjoy laying next to me while I write or surf the net, so we tried to use Maxim as a pillow. I don't think Ted appreciated the dumbing down through osmosis.
I thought maybe our relationship was getting off to a chilly start, so I figured I'd maybe try to break the ice with a drink. I guess Maxim isn't a big fan of tequila or margarita's. I enjoyed my frosty drink while Maxim looked at me unsatisfied and slightly bored. I guess I should be used to it.
I figured if I showed of my video game prowess Maxim would warm up to me a little bit. Without much doubt I shredded through "Beat It" in tribute to the fallen King of Pop. When I handed my axe over, Maxim sucked it up. So much for me being a guitar hero to save the encounter.
Since Maxim has been objectified and mistreated by men since it's been around, I figured I'd put Maxim in some demeaning situations to see how Maxim would react. Unfortunately dusting my PlayStation 3 (which I found to be poetic justice) proved to be another misstep in the afternoon. I guess my way with the Maxim's of the world has diminished since I've been married.
I figured maybe Maxim would like a more dignified job, like protecting my family and my house. I plastered Maxim across our security stop sign. I never though it would deter criminals from robbing our home, but now Maxim's distracting layout and oozing sex on paper could stop would be burglars from entering my humble abode. Alas, making criminals think twice about a life of crime was not what Maxim had in mind.
After this Maxim and I had words, and I attempted to forcibly get Maxim to clean George's cat box. As you can see, it was met with much resistance.
Maybe since Maxim is so beautiful on the outside, Maxim would be interested in hanging up next to some photographic art in our entry way. Maxim responded to this a little better, but for reasons my wife would be able to explain, I figured it would be better to try and find a more appropriate place to dwell.
And this is how we end. Parting is such sweet sorrow, Maxim. However, I know you'll be back in a month.
The first thing we tried to do was see if we could get Ted a second pillow for when he is not in the living room. He's a big fan of sleeping since he is growing so much, and he does enjoy laying next to me while I write or surf the net, so we tried to use Maxim as a pillow. I don't think Ted appreciated the dumbing down through osmosis.
I thought maybe our relationship was getting off to a chilly start, so I figured I'd maybe try to break the ice with a drink. I guess Maxim isn't a big fan of tequila or margarita's. I enjoyed my frosty drink while Maxim looked at me unsatisfied and slightly bored. I guess I should be used to it.
I figured if I showed of my video game prowess Maxim would warm up to me a little bit. Without much doubt I shredded through "Beat It" in tribute to the fallen King of Pop. When I handed my axe over, Maxim sucked it up. So much for me being a guitar hero to save the encounter.
Since Maxim has been objectified and mistreated by men since it's been around, I figured I'd put Maxim in some demeaning situations to see how Maxim would react. Unfortunately dusting my PlayStation 3 (which I found to be poetic justice) proved to be another misstep in the afternoon. I guess my way with the Maxim's of the world has diminished since I've been married.
I figured maybe Maxim would like a more dignified job, like protecting my family and my house. I plastered Maxim across our security stop sign. I never though it would deter criminals from robbing our home, but now Maxim's distracting layout and oozing sex on paper could stop would be burglars from entering my humble abode. Alas, making criminals think twice about a life of crime was not what Maxim had in mind.
After this Maxim and I had words, and I attempted to forcibly get Maxim to clean George's cat box. As you can see, it was met with much resistance.
Maybe since Maxim is so beautiful on the outside, Maxim would be interested in hanging up next to some photographic art in our entry way. Maxim responded to this a little better, but for reasons my wife would be able to explain, I figured it would be better to try and find a more appropriate place to dwell.
And this is how we end. Parting is such sweet sorrow, Maxim. However, I know you'll be back in a month.
I'm okay with getting older.
(Now that you are done oogling at Megan Fox, let's get rolling).
Based on what has happened to my mailbox. Not so much to it as what has happened inside of it. I still play video games whenever I have time. I have all the major gaming systems of this generation, as they call it. I'm patiently biding my time until the new installment of NCAA Football comes out so I can start as a coach of meager means and rise to the top of gridiron glory, as I do every year.
I also subscribed to a gaming magazine, a subscription I kept for many years. At the start of 2009 Electronic Gaming Monthly became a casualty of the decline of print media and stopped publishing their rag. I figured I'd get a refund check. I figured wrong.
A few weeks ago I open up my mailbox at the end of my block to find a copy of something I haven't even seen since I was 22. I wasn't even sure if they still put the damn thing out. Maxim appeared and I didn't know why. I remember it had samples of cheap teen boy cologne and pictures of mostly naked women I could subscribe to Playboy and see without the tease, if I really wanted. The magazine always appeared to be a bit of a jerk off to me.
Now I am older and wiser. Ok, not really but I still know good writing from writing that I hope when the human race is centuries long gone that archaeologists from far off planets do not discover, only to deduce that this was the pinnacle of our journalistic endeavors.
I still page through it before I toss it in our recycling bin (yes I know, how snobbish using a recycling bin rather than the trash) for some laughs. This month, Maxim tears apart the 2010 Chevrolet Camaro versus the 2010 Ford Mustang. Two cars I would be interested reading about in Car & Driver or Motor Trend.
Of course, Maxim has nary an automobile expert, so they rely on women of N.Y.C. most likely displaying the pictures in the magazine gauging the quotes. "The Camaro looks classier. But red's pretty arrogant. And I'd really prefer if it were a Bentley." - Hannah, 22.
Thank you, Hannah. I always wondered if gallivanting around in a red Camaro, and American classic, was arrogant up against say, a $400,000 Bentley.
If you are a casual watcher of television, like to come out of your parent's basement, or have your newest Megan Fox fan club mailer you are well aware of Michael Bay's latest abomination and spite against humanity, "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen." Now, every sensible critic I have read has panned the movie, because it wreaks of suck. Maxim, however, is treating it like Gosford Park 2.
Fox is placed in various degrees of degrading positions, actors will scream dialogue like you're at a Dane Cook concert (because just telling a joke isn't funny, unless you yell it out) and historic landmarks will be reduced to piles of rubble. I'm not even upset Michael Bay is perverting more classics from the 80's like I was after I walked out of the first live action Transformers, now it's boiled down to the fact this guy is still making movies. Did you know Maxim's publishing offices are nestled comfortably between the New York Times and the New York Public Library? Lock up your wife and kids.
I understand movies are supposed to be fun, make believe and an escape from our normal lives. But at what a price? Certainly I will keep my brain cells in tact for such cinematic seriousness like "The Hangover."
Lady Gaga is an abomination of Satan himself and Madonna. Her songs are second rate and her "out there" attitude makes me weep for kids thinking she is the definition of cool. Kids who will never discover The Replacements or The Minutemen and never truly understand what a true rebel in music is.
"I'm dressed conservatively today, I should take off my pants just to freak them out!" A woman threatening to take off their pants in a Morton's Steak House has never been so potentially boring. Bi-curious activity (when it's a "hot," lipstick lesbian type) sells to the Maxim reading community, because it's mentioned in every feature involving the women it interviews. I use that term loosely, obviously. "So we know your new album/movie/homemade porn is getting straight into the everyday life of impressionable teens and young adults around the world. So do you like to have sex with women?" This was probably a real question or has been one in Maxim's time. How do I figure? Because this was a question...
Maxim: Do you prefer sex with men or women?
Ms. Gaga: It depends of the guy or the girl. But I'm not discussing my sex life with you. I will say that I'd be a happy girl if I could make the whole world gay.
Edgy. Then gay people wouldn't have a gay identity, or be defined apart from straight people which isn't a bad thing according to a few gay friends, minus the whole government reserving marriage rights for wholesome straight people. I wonder, no wait, she clearly doesn't know what she is talking about. Bless her heart, she may have the gay community's best interests in mind, but I doubt it.
I like how in one breath she let's you know she does in fact, have sex with women. But she won't give you the details, which is what we seem to be wrapped up with as a society. Truth be told, if I did have to think about her with other women, I'd rather let my imagination do the walking. Fancy that, using my imagination.
Did you know that growing up in New Jersey gives you enough material to play psychotic roles as a hick in movies like "Black Snake Moan" and "Monster" like Christina Ricci? Time to place this in the bin and take a shower.
Based on what has happened to my mailbox. Not so much to it as what has happened inside of it. I still play video games whenever I have time. I have all the major gaming systems of this generation, as they call it. I'm patiently biding my time until the new installment of NCAA Football comes out so I can start as a coach of meager means and rise to the top of gridiron glory, as I do every year.
I also subscribed to a gaming magazine, a subscription I kept for many years. At the start of 2009 Electronic Gaming Monthly became a casualty of the decline of print media and stopped publishing their rag. I figured I'd get a refund check. I figured wrong.
A few weeks ago I open up my mailbox at the end of my block to find a copy of something I haven't even seen since I was 22. I wasn't even sure if they still put the damn thing out. Maxim appeared and I didn't know why. I remember it had samples of cheap teen boy cologne and pictures of mostly naked women I could subscribe to Playboy and see without the tease, if I really wanted. The magazine always appeared to be a bit of a jerk off to me.
Now I am older and wiser. Ok, not really but I still know good writing from writing that I hope when the human race is centuries long gone that archaeologists from far off planets do not discover, only to deduce that this was the pinnacle of our journalistic endeavors.
I still page through it before I toss it in our recycling bin (yes I know, how snobbish using a recycling bin rather than the trash) for some laughs. This month, Maxim tears apart the 2010 Chevrolet Camaro versus the 2010 Ford Mustang. Two cars I would be interested reading about in Car & Driver or Motor Trend.
Of course, Maxim has nary an automobile expert, so they rely on women of N.Y.C. most likely displaying the pictures in the magazine gauging the quotes. "The Camaro looks classier. But red's pretty arrogant. And I'd really prefer if it were a Bentley." - Hannah, 22.
Thank you, Hannah. I always wondered if gallivanting around in a red Camaro, and American classic, was arrogant up against say, a $400,000 Bentley.
If you are a casual watcher of television, like to come out of your parent's basement, or have your newest Megan Fox fan club mailer you are well aware of Michael Bay's latest abomination and spite against humanity, "Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen." Now, every sensible critic I have read has panned the movie, because it wreaks of suck. Maxim, however, is treating it like Gosford Park 2.
Fox is placed in various degrees of degrading positions, actors will scream dialogue like you're at a Dane Cook concert (because just telling a joke isn't funny, unless you yell it out) and historic landmarks will be reduced to piles of rubble. I'm not even upset Michael Bay is perverting more classics from the 80's like I was after I walked out of the first live action Transformers, now it's boiled down to the fact this guy is still making movies. Did you know Maxim's publishing offices are nestled comfortably between the New York Times and the New York Public Library? Lock up your wife and kids.
I understand movies are supposed to be fun, make believe and an escape from our normal lives. But at what a price? Certainly I will keep my brain cells in tact for such cinematic seriousness like "The Hangover."
Lady Gaga is an abomination of Satan himself and Madonna. Her songs are second rate and her "out there" attitude makes me weep for kids thinking she is the definition of cool. Kids who will never discover The Replacements or The Minutemen and never truly understand what a true rebel in music is.
"I'm dressed conservatively today, I should take off my pants just to freak them out!" A woman threatening to take off their pants in a Morton's Steak House has never been so potentially boring. Bi-curious activity (when it's a "hot," lipstick lesbian type) sells to the Maxim reading community, because it's mentioned in every feature involving the women it interviews. I use that term loosely, obviously. "So we know your new album/movie/homemade porn is getting straight into the everyday life of impressionable teens and young adults around the world. So do you like to have sex with women?" This was probably a real question or has been one in Maxim's time. How do I figure? Because this was a question...
Maxim: Do you prefer sex with men or women?
Ms. Gaga: It depends of the guy or the girl. But I'm not discussing my sex life with you. I will say that I'd be a happy girl if I could make the whole world gay.
Edgy. Then gay people wouldn't have a gay identity, or be defined apart from straight people which isn't a bad thing according to a few gay friends, minus the whole government reserving marriage rights for wholesome straight people. I wonder, no wait, she clearly doesn't know what she is talking about. Bless her heart, she may have the gay community's best interests in mind, but I doubt it.
I like how in one breath she let's you know she does in fact, have sex with women. But she won't give you the details, which is what we seem to be wrapped up with as a society. Truth be told, if I did have to think about her with other women, I'd rather let my imagination do the walking. Fancy that, using my imagination.
Did you know that growing up in New Jersey gives you enough material to play psychotic roles as a hick in movies like "Black Snake Moan" and "Monster" like Christina Ricci? Time to place this in the bin and take a shower.
A Minor Self-Indulgence of Sorts
Sometimes you realize you're in a place you didn't think you'd end up in. Kansas City isn't a world away from where I grew up in South Dakota, however some days you get little reminders you aren't where you came from.
I did (willingly) give up my friends and family to relocate. In the end, it was for the best. I'm very happy with my life right now. I'm doing well at a job that is finally flexible to my school schedule, which I'm doing ever better at. So, to say I miss my old home would probably be something a person with zero perspective in the middle of a great situation would say.
I do miss portions of it though. Tomorrow some old friends are staying with my wife and I. They're coming back through Kansas City from St. Louis so they can follow and catch their beloved Minnesota Twins. 'Circle Me Bert' signs be damned, we will be joining them.
I have friends here. I have good friends here. But their arrival reminds me, even though the relationships aren't what they were 10 or even 15 years ago, I had potentially lifelong friends back home. Them, along with some others, I see sless than the seasons change in the year.
Most people will take a visit like this and just enjoy the time. I'm not saying I won't, because I've been looking forward to this for awhile whether anyone else was or not. But for some reason I've never been able to escape my ability to draw out the darker side of most any situation. I'm not sure what this says about me, and with most of my posts being very self referential, I'll back down a bit and spare you all the self-analyzing boredom my own wife can't even stomach.
So, here's to a good night off with some old friends at a baseball game and my house while I tame the same old same old.
I did (willingly) give up my friends and family to relocate. In the end, it was for the best. I'm very happy with my life right now. I'm doing well at a job that is finally flexible to my school schedule, which I'm doing ever better at. So, to say I miss my old home would probably be something a person with zero perspective in the middle of a great situation would say.
I do miss portions of it though. Tomorrow some old friends are staying with my wife and I. They're coming back through Kansas City from St. Louis so they can follow and catch their beloved Minnesota Twins. 'Circle Me Bert' signs be damned, we will be joining them.
I have friends here. I have good friends here. But their arrival reminds me, even though the relationships aren't what they were 10 or even 15 years ago, I had potentially lifelong friends back home. Them, along with some others, I see sless than the seasons change in the year.
Most people will take a visit like this and just enjoy the time. I'm not saying I won't, because I've been looking forward to this for awhile whether anyone else was or not. But for some reason I've never been able to escape my ability to draw out the darker side of most any situation. I'm not sure what this says about me, and with most of my posts being very self referential, I'll back down a bit and spare you all the self-analyzing boredom my own wife can't even stomach.
So, here's to a good night off with some old friends at a baseball game and my house while I tame the same old same old.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Allow Me
Let me throw my considerable weight around on this issue, since everyone under the Sun feels the need to talk about it.
I did my minute of memorial service for Michael Jackson soon after I found out he died. I feel a sense of loss each time I hear a story of someone dying, reprehensible character or not. However, the reverence and attention Michael is receiving is surprising and not at the same time.
The love of celebrity and fame isn't anything new to anyone in my generation. When a figure like Jackson dies, there are going to be some varied degrees of a spotlight on the subject. But let's get real for a minute. None of us knew Jackson personally, were never going to know him personally or may even want to judging on what you believe had been written about him in the press for the past two decades.
You would have been more likely to make a joke about Jackson's alleged pedophilia than listening to "Bad" these days. I'm sure there are some true blue fans who never lost hope in him, but I think most of them are in Germany. Or Indonesia. The rest are going back through their long forgotten catalog of Jackson hits, or scrambling to iTunes to download "Thriller."
So let's not kid ourselves here. How much thought in your day went into the personal life of Michael Jackson before you heard he died? "I need to get to the store and pick up a loaf of bread for tomorrow. I really need to get to the gym more. I wonder how Michael Jackson is holding up since he sold Neverland Ranch? Did I check the mail this afternoon when I came home from work?" He's dead now, and so today we care.
The greatest crime is how we treat these people. We lift them up to heights and wealth none of us will ever attain, and when they slip up or have a perceived slip up, we in our righteous indignation rip it from them and rub their noses in excrement to show they are no better or worse than us. Then, when they die, we hold candle light vigils and teary memorial services for them and remember the good times. It may be a good day to die, but it's never a good day to show a shred of dignity or decency.
I, for one, think this is a little hypocritical and even unfair. Depending on the "crime" I suppose. So let's let Michael's family grieve. Leave the weeping to his close friends and intimates. We need to get on with our own lives. I heard Kim Jong Il was going to fire a missile at Hawaii. And congress was trying to pass an energy bill that will tax us until infinity. But before we get back to reality, let's listen to a little "Billie Jean" while we get a Starbucks and then settle in for some TMZ.
Rinse, repeat.
I did my minute of memorial service for Michael Jackson soon after I found out he died. I feel a sense of loss each time I hear a story of someone dying, reprehensible character or not. However, the reverence and attention Michael is receiving is surprising and not at the same time.
The love of celebrity and fame isn't anything new to anyone in my generation. When a figure like Jackson dies, there are going to be some varied degrees of a spotlight on the subject. But let's get real for a minute. None of us knew Jackson personally, were never going to know him personally or may even want to judging on what you believe had been written about him in the press for the past two decades.
You would have been more likely to make a joke about Jackson's alleged pedophilia than listening to "Bad" these days. I'm sure there are some true blue fans who never lost hope in him, but I think most of them are in Germany. Or Indonesia. The rest are going back through their long forgotten catalog of Jackson hits, or scrambling to iTunes to download "Thriller."
So let's not kid ourselves here. How much thought in your day went into the personal life of Michael Jackson before you heard he died? "I need to get to the store and pick up a loaf of bread for tomorrow. I really need to get to the gym more. I wonder how Michael Jackson is holding up since he sold Neverland Ranch? Did I check the mail this afternoon when I came home from work?" He's dead now, and so today we care.
The greatest crime is how we treat these people. We lift them up to heights and wealth none of us will ever attain, and when they slip up or have a perceived slip up, we in our righteous indignation rip it from them and rub their noses in excrement to show they are no better or worse than us. Then, when they die, we hold candle light vigils and teary memorial services for them and remember the good times. It may be a good day to die, but it's never a good day to show a shred of dignity or decency.
I, for one, think this is a little hypocritical and even unfair. Depending on the "crime" I suppose. So let's let Michael's family grieve. Leave the weeping to his close friends and intimates. We need to get on with our own lives. I heard Kim Jong Il was going to fire a missile at Hawaii. And congress was trying to pass an energy bill that will tax us until infinity. But before we get back to reality, let's listen to a little "Billie Jean" while we get a Starbucks and then settle in for some TMZ.
Rinse, repeat.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Words Are Flowing Out...
Hmmm...I don't really feel like writing much either. Actually, I would love to write, but there's just so much to write about. Seriously. The topics are endless: Ed McMahon dying, neo-Nazi octogenarians, heat advisories, Jon & Kate divorcing, a doctor being shot down in church...the list is endless. So! I've decided to write about all of it...and more. Reader, be forewarned: There will be much rambling.
Ed McMahon is dead. People dying is typically sad; the greatest sidekick ever (save Andy Richter) dying is a bit more sad, I guess. I'll be honest, as I am, and tell you what Ed's death makes me feel. First, it makes me feel old, which isn't really out of the ordinary, I suppose. Second, it makes me miss Phil Hartman (I have to admit, I always liked Phil's impersonation of Ed McMahon way more than I liked Ed McMahon himself). Mr. McMahon always sort of creeped me out on The Tonight Show and more so on Star Search. However, I have fond memories of watching him with Dick Clark on TV Bloopers and Practical Jokes. Ed's set-up and delivery, albeit completely scripted, was some good stuff. For real.
Speaking of completely scripted events, 88 year old white supremacist James von Brunn shot and killed a security officer at the U.S. Holocaust Memorial Museum not too long ago. I don't even know what to say about this guy. I tried to read up on him and his "the Holocaust never happened" drivel, but it became, at best, laughable and, at worst, disturbing as all get out. Grand Wizard von Brunn is just a small speck of poo in a clogged and overflowing toilet of hatred and deceit where all the other excrement feel sorry for themselves and each other even though they're the people who are messing up the plumbing. It's well known that the remedy to a backed-up toilet is a perfect balance of plunging, time, and persistence. Happy flushing!
Let's move on to heat advisories. They are dumb. That is all. Wait, okay...elderly people and young children should definitely get some extra attention when it's sooooo hot outside, but the weatherpeople of the world are being a bit ridiculous with the stupid heat advisory maps and such. Seriously.
Okay. My wife and I are guilty of Jon & Kate voyeurism, but we haven't been following it obsessively like Entertainment Tonight or US Weekly. If there's anyone out there who thought this family, given it's complex back story, would have a fairy tale ending, please don't procreate. J&K's situation is precisely what happens to two well-meaning jerks when they reproduce at a rapid pace and decide to let the world watch what happens. Is it just me, or is Jon reverting to his seventeen year old self? And don't Kate's eyes scream "I will pose nude for Playboy in the near future"? Just sayin'...
On a lighter note, infamous Dr. George Tiller was gunned down by a pro-life extremist while ushering at his church. Irony abounds. What's that? Oh, you'd like to know my personal beliefs? Okay...well, hmmm. Killing people is stupid; not only in the way crazy pro-life man did it, but also in the way the good Doctor Tiller did it. Now don't go getting your tubes in a tangle, feminists of the world. I'm all for women's rights...I really am. You know something, though? I don't get why loads of women can be so up-in-arms about reproductive rights, but not nearly as many seem to give a damn that women are paid far less than their male counterparts for equal work. Maybe that's the problem: Demand more money at work so then you can afford to buy contraceptives, avoid pregnancy, and therefore avoid abortion. Also, blogger Mark Smith pointed out how strange it was that a whole bunch of white women gathered at the Plaza for a vigil when Dr. Tiller was murdered, but they don't seem to notice that people are murdered every day on Kansas City's east side. I don't get it and I'm afraid they don't either.
Hooray! It's over!
Ed McMahon is dead. People dying is typically sad; the greatest sidekick ever (save Andy Richter) dying is a bit more sad, I guess. I'll be honest, as I am, and tell you what Ed's death makes me feel. First, it makes me feel old, which isn't really out of the ordinary, I suppose. Second, it makes me miss Phil Hartman (I have to admit, I always liked Phil's impersonation of Ed McMahon way more than I liked Ed McMahon himself). Mr. McMahon always sort of creeped me out on The Tonight Show and more so on Star Search. However, I have fond memories of watching him with Dick Clark on TV Bloopers and Practical Jokes. Ed's set-up and delivery, albeit completely scripted, was some good stuff. For real.
Speaking of completely scripted events, 88 year old white supremacist James von Brunn shot and killed a security officer at the U.S. Holocaust Memorial Museum not too long ago. I don't even know what to say about this guy. I tried to read up on him and his "the Holocaust never happened" drivel, but it became, at best, laughable and, at worst, disturbing as all get out. Grand Wizard von Brunn is just a small speck of poo in a clogged and overflowing toilet of hatred and deceit where all the other excrement feel sorry for themselves and each other even though they're the people who are messing up the plumbing. It's well known that the remedy to a backed-up toilet is a perfect balance of plunging, time, and persistence. Happy flushing!
Let's move on to heat advisories. They are dumb. That is all. Wait, okay...elderly people and young children should definitely get some extra attention when it's sooooo hot outside, but the weatherpeople of the world are being a bit ridiculous with the stupid heat advisory maps and such. Seriously.
Okay. My wife and I are guilty of Jon & Kate voyeurism, but we haven't been following it obsessively like Entertainment Tonight or US Weekly. If there's anyone out there who thought this family, given it's complex back story, would have a fairy tale ending, please don't procreate. J&K's situation is precisely what happens to two well-meaning jerks when they reproduce at a rapid pace and decide to let the world watch what happens. Is it just me, or is Jon reverting to his seventeen year old self? And don't Kate's eyes scream "I will pose nude for Playboy in the near future"? Just sayin'...
On a lighter note, infamous Dr. George Tiller was gunned down by a pro-life extremist while ushering at his church. Irony abounds. What's that? Oh, you'd like to know my personal beliefs? Okay...well, hmmm. Killing people is stupid; not only in the way crazy pro-life man did it, but also in the way the good Doctor Tiller did it. Now don't go getting your tubes in a tangle, feminists of the world. I'm all for women's rights...I really am. You know something, though? I don't get why loads of women can be so up-in-arms about reproductive rights, but not nearly as many seem to give a damn that women are paid far less than their male counterparts for equal work. Maybe that's the problem: Demand more money at work so then you can afford to buy contraceptives, avoid pregnancy, and therefore avoid abortion. Also, blogger Mark Smith pointed out how strange it was that a whole bunch of white women gathered at the Plaza for a vigil when Dr. Tiller was murdered, but they don't seem to notice that people are murdered every day on Kansas City's east side. I don't get it and I'm afraid they don't either.
Hooray! It's over!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Dilemma
Here is a riddle. What are you to do when you are supposed to be a writer, but don't feel like writing? At all.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Is it any wonder?
So I'm up too late once again, ready to unleash my meandering palaver onto the internets.
I'm stuck right now. I'm not a big fan of partial birth abortion. But killing the guy who practices it? I suppose his first mistake was thinking he could get away with it in the Midwest and die of "old age," or the state of Kansas more specifically. Between Fred Phelps and Jayhawks, I know I already live too close.
Not to say I've found my stay in the state of Missouri much better. I guess for someone growing up in a state with the population less than half of the city I live in it's a bit of a different beast. It's not to say I'm Woody Boyd, but I guess I could be a bit of a hayseed. However, I am fairly progressive in my thoughts and beliefs. I think it's perfectly fine of gay people to get married, I'm mostly pro-choice because I don't think it's the governments right to tell you want to do with your body, and I'm not particularly religious. But the way people treat one another down here is ridiculous. I'm glad I picked Kansas City and not somewhere out of the Midwest.
After I saw George Tiller had been assassinated all I could say was "what the fuck?" While I think his practice is egregious, it's just my opinion. And while I think my opinion consistently rules, I don't think I've killed someone who has disagreed with my inherent awesomeness. And why is it always crazy ass anti-government or ultra-religious people who pull this sort of crap off? You never hear about the educated, homosexual Atheist killing the preacher of an ultra conservative church for gay bashing do you? As if America needed a bigger reason to avoid religious or anti-government nut jobs as elected officials.
I don't think I'll ever take residence in the state of Kansas, just so when I'm elsewhere in the country I don't have to be looked down on by the rest of the world.
I'm stuck right now. I'm not a big fan of partial birth abortion. But killing the guy who practices it? I suppose his first mistake was thinking he could get away with it in the Midwest and die of "old age," or the state of Kansas more specifically. Between Fred Phelps and Jayhawks, I know I already live too close.
Not to say I've found my stay in the state of Missouri much better. I guess for someone growing up in a state with the population less than half of the city I live in it's a bit of a different beast. It's not to say I'm Woody Boyd, but I guess I could be a bit of a hayseed. However, I am fairly progressive in my thoughts and beliefs. I think it's perfectly fine of gay people to get married, I'm mostly pro-choice because I don't think it's the governments right to tell you want to do with your body, and I'm not particularly religious. But the way people treat one another down here is ridiculous. I'm glad I picked Kansas City and not somewhere out of the Midwest.
After I saw George Tiller had been assassinated all I could say was "what the fuck?" While I think his practice is egregious, it's just my opinion. And while I think my opinion consistently rules, I don't think I've killed someone who has disagreed with my inherent awesomeness. And why is it always crazy ass anti-government or ultra-religious people who pull this sort of crap off? You never hear about the educated, homosexual Atheist killing the preacher of an ultra conservative church for gay bashing do you? As if America needed a bigger reason to avoid religious or anti-government nut jobs as elected officials.
I don't think I'll ever take residence in the state of Kansas, just so when I'm elsewhere in the country I don't have to be looked down on by the rest of the world.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
A Human Condition
Working the job I do, you have your finger on the pulse of the sense of entitlement out there. People want something for nothing, the customer is always right and feel despite the fact you treat them with the utmost respect and dignity they have no qualms rubbing your face in their inability to return some common courtesy.
Of course not everyone is like this, some are decent and even nice. For the most part my contact with people beyond my own circle of friends and family leaves something to be desired. Now, you have to take into account the people I talk to have legit issues which are irritating. However, what people expect out of a relatively small amount of money is completely disproportionate.
Let's say you pay $85 dollars a month for your cable bill. Extrapolate it over the course of a year and you pay $1,020. It's not enough to cover one of my paychecks. So how would you losing a few hours of service be grounds for you to request an entire month of service? I don't work for a cable company, however this hypothetical request is something I deal with on a minute to minute basis.
All in all, and despite people asking for the sun, moon and stars, I still love the challenge of what I do. The job is a daily acquisition of puzzle pieces making you better than you were yesterday, and I really appreciate it. I need things to exercise my mind or I would go nuts. More so than I already am.
So I have this to fall back one while I'm hiatus from full-time school which I am excelling at to my surprise, but to the surprise of no one else. Maybe one of the things I feared was I knew I could be successful at this and I'd have to hear everyone say "I told you so." Being a 4.0 student and the drive I have to get there (which not surprisingly, doesn't require as much as I thought it might) is bleeding over into the professional aspect of my life. Now, if I could apply it to getting into the gym and landscaping my yard, my wife would love me that much more.
"What does this have to do with anything?"
Glad you asked, let me explain...
Detaching myself from how I operated from about the age of 15 to the age of 27 is a process still in development. A big part of who I am stems from my broken home as a teen in high school, and it is something I don't talk about much on my blog. At least compared to the rest of the mindless and some meaningful topics I tackle or stumble over.
Self reliance is a trait most see as invaluable. However too much can be poison. I wasted ten good years of my life figuring it out. I dropped out of college, messed up friendships and relationships, and even fell into some that damaged me emotionally and financially. I ran over some good people, and cut strings from people I thought I'd be attached to my entire life. Counting on only yourself leaves little room for others.
My relationship with my family hasn't been the same since I decided I didn't need them. My extended family is an afterthought, the people I looked up to as a child were demystified to the point of them being useless while I searched for someone else to fill the void. What I learned was I became me through the people I wanted to dispose of, which caused a deep resentment directed at myself. I hated and disliked me, because of what I thought everyone else who had my last name (or my Mom's) screwed me out of what I deserved in life. Funny thing is, they wanted to do everything they could to keep me from being so bitter. Being right all the time blinds you from those who are trying to assist you.
My sense of entitlement and my success in life I thought would just be a given. I deserved it just because of who I was. Did it come from how I was raised? I was praised quite a bit, but I never followed through on it. The people I was close too and loved, it was good enough for them so why even try harder? I've learned over the past few years, and more recently with this current job, just being there doesn't entitle you shit. It fosters a great deal of complacency, and you get lazy.
I missed out on a lot of life in some respects. The loss of a close family member and a couple of friends couldn't make me see the light in my early 20's, but a group of kids 10 years younger than me, and disgruntled cell phone users from around the country helped me break the mold. Most of all, my wife and companion has helped me. She probably wouldn't know why exactly, and maybe neither do I. There are quite a few unspoken phenomena in our relationship.
Repairing what I've lost and salvaging what I can is a double edged sword at this point. Moving from Sioux Falls to Kansas City allowed me to bury things that needed burying. But it also prevents me from mending some fences, which is hard to let go of. But I carry on and do what I can when I can. The older you get the smaller your world becomes. When you are striking out on your own, everything and everyone is so important. But the moments you have with the people you trust and love become more real when you don't try to be everything to everyone.
It's sort of cliche, the closer I get to 30 the more I see the previous 29 years shrinking in the rear view mirror. It's a good thing, because the weight I was carrying around my neck almost choked me to death. Basically what I'm hoping for is not to be so bitter when I have crappy cell phone reception and have to call to get it fixed and don't hassle the guy or gal on the other end of the line too much. All I can hope for is everyone else out there is coming to a moment of self-realization akin to what I am experiencing.
Of course not everyone is like this, some are decent and even nice. For the most part my contact with people beyond my own circle of friends and family leaves something to be desired. Now, you have to take into account the people I talk to have legit issues which are irritating. However, what people expect out of a relatively small amount of money is completely disproportionate.
Let's say you pay $85 dollars a month for your cable bill. Extrapolate it over the course of a year and you pay $1,020. It's not enough to cover one of my paychecks. So how would you losing a few hours of service be grounds for you to request an entire month of service? I don't work for a cable company, however this hypothetical request is something I deal with on a minute to minute basis.
All in all, and despite people asking for the sun, moon and stars, I still love the challenge of what I do. The job is a daily acquisition of puzzle pieces making you better than you were yesterday, and I really appreciate it. I need things to exercise my mind or I would go nuts. More so than I already am.
So I have this to fall back one while I'm hiatus from full-time school which I am excelling at to my surprise, but to the surprise of no one else. Maybe one of the things I feared was I knew I could be successful at this and I'd have to hear everyone say "I told you so." Being a 4.0 student and the drive I have to get there (which not surprisingly, doesn't require as much as I thought it might) is bleeding over into the professional aspect of my life. Now, if I could apply it to getting into the gym and landscaping my yard, my wife would love me that much more.
"What does this have to do with anything?"
Glad you asked, let me explain...
Detaching myself from how I operated from about the age of 15 to the age of 27 is a process still in development. A big part of who I am stems from my broken home as a teen in high school, and it is something I don't talk about much on my blog. At least compared to the rest of the mindless and some meaningful topics I tackle or stumble over.
Self reliance is a trait most see as invaluable. However too much can be poison. I wasted ten good years of my life figuring it out. I dropped out of college, messed up friendships and relationships, and even fell into some that damaged me emotionally and financially. I ran over some good people, and cut strings from people I thought I'd be attached to my entire life. Counting on only yourself leaves little room for others.
My relationship with my family hasn't been the same since I decided I didn't need them. My extended family is an afterthought, the people I looked up to as a child were demystified to the point of them being useless while I searched for someone else to fill the void. What I learned was I became me through the people I wanted to dispose of, which caused a deep resentment directed at myself. I hated and disliked me, because of what I thought everyone else who had my last name (or my Mom's) screwed me out of what I deserved in life. Funny thing is, they wanted to do everything they could to keep me from being so bitter. Being right all the time blinds you from those who are trying to assist you.
My sense of entitlement and my success in life I thought would just be a given. I deserved it just because of who I was. Did it come from how I was raised? I was praised quite a bit, but I never followed through on it. The people I was close too and loved, it was good enough for them so why even try harder? I've learned over the past few years, and more recently with this current job, just being there doesn't entitle you shit. It fosters a great deal of complacency, and you get lazy.
I missed out on a lot of life in some respects. The loss of a close family member and a couple of friends couldn't make me see the light in my early 20's, but a group of kids 10 years younger than me, and disgruntled cell phone users from around the country helped me break the mold. Most of all, my wife and companion has helped me. She probably wouldn't know why exactly, and maybe neither do I. There are quite a few unspoken phenomena in our relationship.
Repairing what I've lost and salvaging what I can is a double edged sword at this point. Moving from Sioux Falls to Kansas City allowed me to bury things that needed burying. But it also prevents me from mending some fences, which is hard to let go of. But I carry on and do what I can when I can. The older you get the smaller your world becomes. When you are striking out on your own, everything and everyone is so important. But the moments you have with the people you trust and love become more real when you don't try to be everything to everyone.
It's sort of cliche, the closer I get to 30 the more I see the previous 29 years shrinking in the rear view mirror. It's a good thing, because the weight I was carrying around my neck almost choked me to death. Basically what I'm hoping for is not to be so bitter when I have crappy cell phone reception and have to call to get it fixed and don't hassle the guy or gal on the other end of the line too much. All I can hope for is everyone else out there is coming to a moment of self-realization akin to what I am experiencing.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Making the rounds
Deciding what is important and what you value is shaped by those around you. At least to a certain extent. From a young age you quickly learn what "cool" is. Sometimes you do all you can do grab onto it and the rest of the time you do what you can to punch it in the face.
Taking movies or music seriously as art or something with a message is difficult. If your neighbor doesn't know about it, then it has value and carries weight with people interested in staying ahead of the curve. The older I get I learn that finding value in what moves you is more daring than conforming to what is easy or what is difficult. Someone who likes Brittney Spears because they like pop music gets more respect from me as opposed to someone who likes Fleet Foxes or MGMT because they're supposed to.
Why all the exposition? Every few years I decide it's a good idea to dust off the Metallica albums I own, which is all of them. This band came in and out of my life at various times. Angst riddled teen (twice), curious pre-teen, college student, mid-twenties with an insta-family guy, and approaching thirty year old dude.
When you have a group as commercially successful as Metallica is, it's hard to take anything they do and make it believable. It's like saying the Yankees have heart and are scrappy. They get paid too much. Art doesn't come from guys with a zillion dollars in the bank. Or does it?
I'm always mystified by the rise of Metallica. At least now I am. When I was 14 I just loved what the music did to me. It tickled the bone in my body that wanted to break stuff. For a kid whose parent's marriage was a ticking time bomb, it was the perfect soundtrack to the dimise of childhood innocence.
Like any good current or former metal head, I'd say Metallica's albums from the 80's are my favorites. But I'd be remiss not to mention post "Black Album" efforts from the band are interesting in their scope and ability to branch out. I can respect a band for not beating a gimmick to death and doing something new at the risk of alienating the masses.
Maybe it's because of their new Guitar Hero game taking me back. I don't play the real guitar much anymore, and it reminds me of when I did, and when I was good at it. Really good. I'm not going as far as to say I'm trying to recapture my youth, because that would mean I'm admitting it's gone.
Having parents who went out when I was nine or ten meant being babysat my the girls in my neighborhood who ranged from 12 to 16 years old. This also meant there were no limits on what I could watch on television. Not that I paid any mind to the no MTV clause in my childhood contract with my Mom, who insisted it would rot my brain. You can imagine impressionable youths having their minds warped while watching videos like this.
I still love the video. Completely unlike everything on MTV, which I was actually getting bored with at the age of nine. Pretty funny and a sign of things to come.
I knew what I was watching. The radio station I fell asleep to every night had a Top 9 at nine countdown, and despite mainstream success being a few years away for this band, it was number one night after night when "...And Justice For All" was released. The video hooked me, even though I didn't really know it yet. All the older guys in my neighborhood listened to this stuff and being cool kept you from being harassed and mildly accosted.
I posted the picture above of Metallica because it's the first image I remember and was connected to. Pre-big time success and still out there on the edge which scared your parents. Remember recording tapes from your friends? I do, and my first Metallica tape came while I was still at Cleveland Elementary School. It was a mix of "Justice" and "Master of Puppets." The music was scary and dark for a kid who probably should have been listening to Roxette or Micheal Jackson. The first song on my tape, which I snuck past my parents until I got the actual CD for Christmas in 7th grade, was "Blackened" where one of the famous lines is as follows.
"See your mother put to death, see your mother die."
Pretty heavy for a fourth grader. Guns 'n Roses was probably as close as I got to something this dark. Knowing now lead singer James Hetfield was writing about his mom dying from cancer and not being able to do anything about it because of her Christian Scientist faith puts some context I probably could have used at the time. It scared the crap out of me and interested me all at the same time. I was confused by it and yet couldn't put it down.
I'm not sure what this says about me, or why I still go back to it occasionally with a fervor while all my friends listen to God knows what, modern country like Toby Keith or some bullshit like that. Maybe because even though being married and living on a cul-de-sac in suburbia makes for a comfortable life, I'm still sometimes uncomfortable waiving to neighbors as I grab the newspaper off my driveway. I can talk to them, but I'm never comfortable.
Maybe I don't want to give all of me away just quite yet. I've left a lot behind, most of it for the better, but I still hang on in certain ways. And if that means putting "Ride the Lightning" on in the car when I'm carting people around who would rather listen to Chris Daughtry or Keith Urban, which by the way helps me sleep at night, then so be it.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
When it's 1:33am...
...things tend to get a little lonely around these parts. Being out in the middle of nowhere there is little to no activity. Some people might find some solace in it, but for someone who needs constant attention at times (har) it can be a little wearing.
I am getting used to the grind of my life though. Well, at least the pace. Although the break begining next Tuesday will do me some good. I'll practice writing by keeping up with this, making my fellow contributors produce and updating my shiny new sports blog. Also, my fellow writers for the Park Stylus and I will be busy (hopefully) getting us online this summer.
I'm also taking part in a little social experiment. So far, I've only been able to badger the night owls, but I'm testing to see how good of a Facebook friend I really am. I'm challenging myself to talk to as many people as I can that pop up under chat. I figure if you're going to be my friend, I should be able to talk to you.
This is what my nights have become. Normal people talk with their spouses, walk their dogs and try new recipes. Maybe it's not so odd, but having the same schedule as my wife would be nice.
Only about another year of this. Hopefully.
Editor's Note: The comment feature has been opened to support anonymous commenting to protect the livelyhood of some of my followers. You are welcome :)
I am getting used to the grind of my life though. Well, at least the pace. Although the break begining next Tuesday will do me some good. I'll practice writing by keeping up with this, making my fellow contributors produce and updating my shiny new sports blog. Also, my fellow writers for the Park Stylus and I will be busy (hopefully) getting us online this summer.
I'm also taking part in a little social experiment. So far, I've only been able to badger the night owls, but I'm testing to see how good of a Facebook friend I really am. I'm challenging myself to talk to as many people as I can that pop up under chat. I figure if you're going to be my friend, I should be able to talk to you.
This is what my nights have become. Normal people talk with their spouses, walk their dogs and try new recipes. Maybe it's not so odd, but having the same schedule as my wife would be nice.
Only about another year of this. Hopefully.
Editor's Note: The comment feature has been opened to support anonymous commenting to protect the livelyhood of some of my followers. You are welcome :)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I can post here too, I guess!
I was told to post a complaint or something that has been bothering me lately...so here it goes!
Christians bother me when they talk about faith. There. I'm putting it out there. I don't spend enough time around members of other religious orientations, so I won't generalize out at this point.
When I think on this, a picture of a girl from one of my classes comes to mind. I took a class in college called "Is Globalization Sustainable?" It was the most depressing fucking class I have ever taken. Whenever there was a discussion about religion in any sort of historical sense she would put on her headphones. The professor asked her why she did this one day and she said,
"These evil words won't plague my pure faith."
I know right?
I then proceeded to make her cry.
I have lots of stories like this, and they have shaped my opinion, as well as the entire history of Christianity. You know, wars, corruption, etc. I'm waiting to be corrected. I hope someday I will.
Christians bother me when they talk about faith. There. I'm putting it out there. I don't spend enough time around members of other religious orientations, so I won't generalize out at this point.
When I think on this, a picture of a girl from one of my classes comes to mind. I took a class in college called "Is Globalization Sustainable?" It was the most depressing fucking class I have ever taken. Whenever there was a discussion about religion in any sort of historical sense she would put on her headphones. The professor asked her why she did this one day and she said,
"These evil words won't plague my pure faith."
I know right?
I then proceeded to make her cry.
I have lots of stories like this, and they have shaped my opinion, as well as the entire history of Christianity. You know, wars, corruption, etc. I'm waiting to be corrected. I hope someday I will.
Little Known Facts
If I have talked to you in the last four months, there is a good chance you know I'm enrolled in a class based on ethical philosophy called Choosing and Using Values. For some reason, the population of class is overtly Christian. On a certain level, I don't have any issue with the personal beliefs of an individual. On another level, I question the idea of intellectualism and religion mixing and coexisting effectively.
I'm sure no one from my class reads this blog, so I'm sure I'm safe. Our last online discussion question was as follows.
Should there be international laws put in place to outlaw human cloning?
Valid question. Rather than breaking it down rationally, this was the first response. Excuse all the philosophical mumbo jumbo. I know, I think it sucks too.
This topic is incredibly interesting to me. If you think about the virtue theory we could just clone people to have our virtues and none of our vices. We would then have a better version of ourselves. Though this might seem intriguing I think it would cause a lot of controversy. Cloning to have organs to save lives is another interesting purpose for the procedure. With this idea I have to take a Divine Command Theory and revert back to my belief in God. To me everyone is here as long as he needs them here. When our job is done here on earth God will call us back to heaven. By cloning organs or ourselves to save us would be going against God's will. He did create man to be intelligent and has given us the ability to improve science. Therefore, I do think we should do whatever possible to save someone, but there has to be a line drawn at some point. We can't live forever.
Notice how she capitalizes 'God' but not 'Earth?' Yeah, me too. And I wonder how you take a Divine Command Theory? Most times after class and before my next one I take a big Divine Command Theory in the basement of the building where I take this class.
I won't include my snarky response. Hey, I've been nice all semester, it's the last week of class and this person probably won't even read my response. If we have to draw the line where we stop trying to save lives, can't we draw a line somewhere saying God (if you believe in God) or using God's name as a reason for things we can't explain is no longer acceptable? Try telling the parents of a seven year old kid, "we could have saved your son's life with a heart transplant but there were none available after the accident and we ran out of time, and the religious people banned human cloning which would have given us more availability. But hey, we can't live forever right?"
Hey, it's plausible. Life isn't an episode of Grey's Anatomy where a heart is always on hand to save the kid. Thank goodness. Life as that silly show, not saving kids. You know what I mean.
The point is I'm glad the semester is over for this class tomorrow at 11:25. Not because I didn't like the material or how it made me think about how big of an asshole I am, and how I lack certain ethical standards, but because I'm tired of listening to kids interpret how God would feel about eating a cheeseburger on Good Friday. I'm not joking. I asked this young student if eating one of my wife's Boca Burgers was acceptable, and if pretending it was meat was openly defying God because it's posing as a burger but it's not. She didn't like that question.
These are the things I missed the first time around in college. I'm glad I'm back to play the part of the older jerk with the dreaded "life experience" who should just be working some dead end job, but has decided to come back to school and hurt their chances of getting a good job because I'm clearly smarter.
Oh come on, you knew I couldn't make it out of this post without saying something of the sort.
I'm sure no one from my class reads this blog, so I'm sure I'm safe. Our last online discussion question was as follows.
Should there be international laws put in place to outlaw human cloning?
Valid question. Rather than breaking it down rationally, this was the first response. Excuse all the philosophical mumbo jumbo. I know, I think it sucks too.
This topic is incredibly interesting to me. If you think about the virtue theory we could just clone people to have our virtues and none of our vices. We would then have a better version of ourselves. Though this might seem intriguing I think it would cause a lot of controversy. Cloning to have organs to save lives is another interesting purpose for the procedure. With this idea I have to take a Divine Command Theory and revert back to my belief in God. To me everyone is here as long as he needs them here. When our job is done here on earth God will call us back to heaven. By cloning organs or ourselves to save us would be going against God's will. He did create man to be intelligent and has given us the ability to improve science. Therefore, I do think we should do whatever possible to save someone, but there has to be a line drawn at some point. We can't live forever.
Notice how she capitalizes 'God' but not 'Earth?' Yeah, me too. And I wonder how you take a Divine Command Theory? Most times after class and before my next one I take a big Divine Command Theory in the basement of the building where I take this class.
I won't include my snarky response. Hey, I've been nice all semester, it's the last week of class and this person probably won't even read my response. If we have to draw the line where we stop trying to save lives, can't we draw a line somewhere saying God (if you believe in God) or using God's name as a reason for things we can't explain is no longer acceptable? Try telling the parents of a seven year old kid, "we could have saved your son's life with a heart transplant but there were none available after the accident and we ran out of time, and the religious people banned human cloning which would have given us more availability. But hey, we can't live forever right?"
Hey, it's plausible. Life isn't an episode of Grey's Anatomy where a heart is always on hand to save the kid. Thank goodness. Life as that silly show, not saving kids. You know what I mean.
The point is I'm glad the semester is over for this class tomorrow at 11:25. Not because I didn't like the material or how it made me think about how big of an asshole I am, and how I lack certain ethical standards, but because I'm tired of listening to kids interpret how God would feel about eating a cheeseburger on Good Friday. I'm not joking. I asked this young student if eating one of my wife's Boca Burgers was acceptable, and if pretending it was meat was openly defying God because it's posing as a burger but it's not. She didn't like that question.
These are the things I missed the first time around in college. I'm glad I'm back to play the part of the older jerk with the dreaded "life experience" who should just be working some dead end job, but has decided to come back to school and hurt their chances of getting a good job because I'm clearly smarter.
Oh come on, you knew I couldn't make it out of this post without saying something of the sort.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Seriously....
Pedestrian Safety Enhancement Act introduced to protect the blind from quiet cars
OK, first off I'm not a big fan of Hybrid cars I think there a waste of money and bigger pollutant in the end run then just as efficient diesel & gas cars. Also they distract from the bigger issue of needing a much more practical public transit system.
But I digress from my point which is...two of the largest morons in Washington took the time to draft a bill that addresses the problem of blind people not being able to hear hybrid cars. Like when did this become an freaking issue??? I mean seriously your telling me that some took the time to draft legislation and then had the audacity to waste other Senator's and Congressman's time with it.
The people that drafted this shall go into my file under the tab for the first people to shoot when I become Emperor of the World.
I was told I could blog here....
I guess the admin wanted to pull in more of the tween audience since that is where my intellectual capability usually reside, Like OMG that Twilight was like the best move EVA!!! But seriously...I like to think of myself as an opinionated ass that while I might not always be right I'm always willing to tell you why I feel that way if your willing to tell me why I'm right.
I like others on this site have some disdain for the mainstream media and the status quo, but I lack the elqounce that they have in voicing their opinion, so I'm more of a comentator and occasionally I would throw something out there for the pleps to read and comment on. Almost all my thoughts and observations are based on issue in the public realm and politics. Occasionaly I might throw soemthing out a little more personal, but we shall see.
Well, I'm at work and I need to earn my paycheck...I shall hopefully have something else posted on here by the end of the day depends on if I have the time.
I like others on this site have some disdain for the mainstream media and the status quo, but I lack the elqounce that they have in voicing their opinion, so I'm more of a comentator and occasionally I would throw something out there for the pleps to read and comment on. Almost all my thoughts and observations are based on issue in the public realm and politics. Occasionaly I might throw soemthing out a little more personal, but we shall see.
Well, I'm at work and I need to earn my paycheck...I shall hopefully have something else posted on here by the end of the day depends on if I have the time.
Function
Stuff like this makes me distrust public officials and law enforcement. Of course this is an isolated incident, and most officers would never do something like this. However, it makes me wonder with how tight some of these guys (and girls) are, they are bound to snap on occasion and pull something like this.
Wow.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Welcome To Me...
Greetings, dear reader, and thank you for stopping by today. And a big thank you to the administrator of this blog for enabling me to spread the disease that I like to call "my opinion".
You know, I've racked my brain trying to think of what I'd like to discuss in my premier post here at The Jerk Store. I figure the best place to start would be to explain what I'm sure a majority of my ramblings will be about. First though, I'd like to assure you that I am in no way a conspiracy theorist...at least I don't think I am. With that said, I would also like to assure you that I don't take much of anything at face value. I like to consider myself a "rational cynic" of sorts. The one area that I truly enjoy exercising my enlightened pessimism at this point in time is the media; namely news outlets of any kind and the bile they generate through underground wires and/or beam into outer space en route to our living rooms...or wherever.
For example, my beautiful wife and I have enjoyed viewing the ten o'clock news broadcast from KMBC Channel 9 here in Kansas City. We've scoffed in amazement when they begin by reporting a "late frost" that might damage flower gardens and then follow it up by reporting three deadly shootings on Kansas City's east side. We've chuckled when, on a Monday, they're telling us that the economy is in dire straits and then on Tuesday tell us that the economy is recovering. Finally, we've thrown up in our mouths a little when Bryan Busby spends damn near ten minutes talking about a storm system over Montana and has seven different radar maps to prove it.
Actually, one of my personal favorite moments in KMBC news history occured maybe a little over a year ago. There was a winter storm a'brewin' and a miniscule amount of ice/snow/sleet had fallen in the metro. Local reporter Marcus Moore was dispatched to stand next to a street that was becoming slick and tell us about the state of readiness the local department of transportation was maintaining. Just as one of the anchorpeople were introducing him, the live video feed showed a car sliding down the street into another car or inanimate object (I can't remember which). When this happened, Marcus exclaimed "OH, SHIT!!" The anchorpeople looked confused, but Marcus carried on with a priceless oh-shit-eating grin on his face.
So, this is what you can expect from me. I will consistently point out all the little flaws and injustices that I notice when it comes to news of any sort and I'll mix that in with a refreshing antecdote from time to time.
Here's something to think about: Feel-good/non-stories. They don't belong on the news. I'll pick one right now at random...
...the 2nd most popular story from CNN.com at this moment is about some dudes who played high school football against a rival back in 1993. The game ended in a tie and so they're going to replay the game. News? No. To put this into perspective, a mother killing her daughter and North Korea trying reporters were the 3rd and 5th most popular stories, respectfully.
Bring it like you brought it, yo.
You know, I've racked my brain trying to think of what I'd like to discuss in my premier post here at The Jerk Store. I figure the best place to start would be to explain what I'm sure a majority of my ramblings will be about. First though, I'd like to assure you that I am in no way a conspiracy theorist...at least I don't think I am. With that said, I would also like to assure you that I don't take much of anything at face value. I like to consider myself a "rational cynic" of sorts. The one area that I truly enjoy exercising my enlightened pessimism at this point in time is the media; namely news outlets of any kind and the bile they generate through underground wires and/or beam into outer space en route to our living rooms...or wherever.
For example, my beautiful wife and I have enjoyed viewing the ten o'clock news broadcast from KMBC Channel 9 here in Kansas City. We've scoffed in amazement when they begin by reporting a "late frost" that might damage flower gardens and then follow it up by reporting three deadly shootings on Kansas City's east side. We've chuckled when, on a Monday, they're telling us that the economy is in dire straits and then on Tuesday tell us that the economy is recovering. Finally, we've thrown up in our mouths a little when Bryan Busby spends damn near ten minutes talking about a storm system over Montana and has seven different radar maps to prove it.
Actually, one of my personal favorite moments in KMBC news history occured maybe a little over a year ago. There was a winter storm a'brewin' and a miniscule amount of ice/snow/sleet had fallen in the metro. Local reporter Marcus Moore was dispatched to stand next to a street that was becoming slick and tell us about the state of readiness the local department of transportation was maintaining. Just as one of the anchorpeople were introducing him, the live video feed showed a car sliding down the street into another car or inanimate object (I can't remember which). When this happened, Marcus exclaimed "OH, SHIT!!" The anchorpeople looked confused, but Marcus carried on with a priceless oh-shit-eating grin on his face.
So, this is what you can expect from me. I will consistently point out all the little flaws and injustices that I notice when it comes to news of any sort and I'll mix that in with a refreshing antecdote from time to time.
Here's something to think about: Feel-good/non-stories. They don't belong on the news. I'll pick one right now at random...
...the 2nd most popular story from CNN.com at this moment is about some dudes who played high school football against a rival back in 1993. The game ended in a tie and so they're going to replay the game. News? No. To put this into perspective, a mother killing her daughter and North Korea trying reporters were the 3rd and 5th most popular stories, respectfully.
Bring it like you brought it, yo.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Lol @ me
Oops!
For my Ethics class, aka Choosing and Using Values, we have discussion questions online in a message board format. Look closely at these pictures and take note of my first response line. Yes, you have to click on the pictures. Lazy.
This was completely unintentional and it's all the system's fault. Always is.
And take two, opening said thread...
Hey, I thought it was funny thinking about all the reactions reading it might get.
For my Ethics class, aka Choosing and Using Values, we have discussion questions online in a message board format. Look closely at these pictures and take note of my first response line. Yes, you have to click on the pictures. Lazy.
This was completely unintentional and it's all the system's fault. Always is.
And take two, opening said thread...
Hey, I thought it was funny thinking about all the reactions reading it might get.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Teabag!
Well, this took less time than I originally estimated.
Today, for those not in the know, is tax day. Where you willingly pay in, because if you didn't have to you've already filed and have probably spent your tax money. It happens every year, and just like Christmas it brings pain and misery to all but is easily covered by mass quantities of booze or other mood altering substances.
The significance of today, is the angry, middle-aged white American's took the day off to protest tax increases. Seems like a noble cause to me, I'm surprised I didn't hear about it until earlier today from my wife who also learned of this phenomenon today as well.
We are in the midst of the worst economic downturn since the Great Depression. Hoax? I'm not sure. I lost my job at the end of October and had a job by the beginning of December and was back to work to ring in the new year.
So in protest of corporate bailouts, handouts and (eek!) socialism, mostly Caucasian men and women lined streets in cities across the country and made their voices heard. In Kansas City more than about 3,000 people gathered at Liberty Memorial to air their grievances to the man. What does this tell me? That less than one percent of Kansas Citians either don't care or know better.
Taking a queue from other white, middle-aged men over two hundred years ago, they protested by not dumping consumable products into Boston Harbor they were being taxed too much for, but by getting riled up from watching too much Fox News. Har, har, too easy I know.
Here is the problem, and my point. If you make less than $250,000 you actually got some tax breaks and or will get tax breaks. Right? Do I agree with how they are spending the money? No, but ignorance bothers me. A lot. I wonder if Rupert Murdoch loves watching people jump and dance on command.
If there were a larger market for Fox to become a liberal news outlet, you'd wake up tomorrow with a loving retrospective on Karl Marx, or the daring and heroic life of John Reed. You thought they were in it to be fair and balanced? Wake up. It's about money, it has been for the past 30 years. Now get with it. They don't care about your right-wing political beliefs.
Where were these people last October or November when Bush was pushing his last minute, final kiss off before leaving office, giving of Wall Street nearly $785,0000,000,000? I have more of an issue with giving tax money to guys who sell bullshit as opposed to actual commodities. I can touch and feel a car. You can get laid because of your car, or in it at least. You can't drive a credit default swap.
Now people want to wet their pants about businesses being bailed out. Right wingers want to complain that their small businesses wouldn't be bailed out if they failed. When it was their guy doing it? Cricket. Cricket. Cricket. Which brings me to this.
You are all being played. You (both sides mind you) are suckers in a grand scheme to rob you blind. You are painting each other with brushes created by hogs with the stink of cash and fine wine on their breath. Brushes made in Indonesia for nine cents a day of course. It's the American way.
You've all made your bed, and now you have to lie in it. Catch the double entendre? There will be no socialism, there will be no fascism. Things will swing back the other way more violently and suddenly thea the last time in four or eight years time. Meanwhile the real crooks stay in Washington because no one wants to get off life support for cash in their districts and impose term limits on congressmen. All the while the real people at the top will be pissing into solid gold toilets (true story, Google Meryl Lynch scandal) and lighting Cuban cigars with hundred dollar bills, Rush. The pied piper.
The Tax Day Tea Party website features CNN "failing" while trying to get a story. She (the correspondent) presents the interviewee, with his kid in tow no less, with facts that the state of Illinois gave him a tax break, provided he makes under a quarter mil. Rather than answer the question, he babbles some frothy rant about Abe Lincoln wanting people to be free, blah, blah, blah. The poor woman almost gets hit with picket signs while trying to do her job. I love they took a shot at it being anti-CNN because Sean Hannity's troops were leading the rally. But come on, she is a liberal.
Read the comments on the page. Unbelievable. The wool over the eyes of everyone throwing stones from both sides has to be suffocating.
I weep for the future.
Today, for those not in the know, is tax day. Where you willingly pay in, because if you didn't have to you've already filed and have probably spent your tax money. It happens every year, and just like Christmas it brings pain and misery to all but is easily covered by mass quantities of booze or other mood altering substances.
The significance of today, is the angry, middle-aged white American's took the day off to protest tax increases. Seems like a noble cause to me, I'm surprised I didn't hear about it until earlier today from my wife who also learned of this phenomenon today as well.
We are in the midst of the worst economic downturn since the Great Depression. Hoax? I'm not sure. I lost my job at the end of October and had a job by the beginning of December and was back to work to ring in the new year.
So in protest of corporate bailouts, handouts and (eek!) socialism, mostly Caucasian men and women lined streets in cities across the country and made their voices heard. In Kansas City more than about 3,000 people gathered at Liberty Memorial to air their grievances to the man. What does this tell me? That less than one percent of Kansas Citians either don't care or know better.
Taking a queue from other white, middle-aged men over two hundred years ago, they protested by not dumping consumable products into Boston Harbor they were being taxed too much for, but by getting riled up from watching too much Fox News. Har, har, too easy I know.
Here is the problem, and my point. If you make less than $250,000 you actually got some tax breaks and or will get tax breaks. Right? Do I agree with how they are spending the money? No, but ignorance bothers me. A lot. I wonder if Rupert Murdoch loves watching people jump and dance on command.
If there were a larger market for Fox to become a liberal news outlet, you'd wake up tomorrow with a loving retrospective on Karl Marx, or the daring and heroic life of John Reed. You thought they were in it to be fair and balanced? Wake up. It's about money, it has been for the past 30 years. Now get with it. They don't care about your right-wing political beliefs.
Where were these people last October or November when Bush was pushing his last minute, final kiss off before leaving office, giving of Wall Street nearly $785,0000,000,000? I have more of an issue with giving tax money to guys who sell bullshit as opposed to actual commodities. I can touch and feel a car. You can get laid because of your car, or in it at least. You can't drive a credit default swap.
Now people want to wet their pants about businesses being bailed out. Right wingers want to complain that their small businesses wouldn't be bailed out if they failed. When it was their guy doing it? Cricket. Cricket. Cricket. Which brings me to this.
You are all being played. You (both sides mind you) are suckers in a grand scheme to rob you blind. You are painting each other with brushes created by hogs with the stink of cash and fine wine on their breath. Brushes made in Indonesia for nine cents a day of course. It's the American way.
You've all made your bed, and now you have to lie in it. Catch the double entendre? There will be no socialism, there will be no fascism. Things will swing back the other way more violently and suddenly thea the last time in four or eight years time. Meanwhile the real crooks stay in Washington because no one wants to get off life support for cash in their districts and impose term limits on congressmen. All the while the real people at the top will be pissing into solid gold toilets (true story, Google Meryl Lynch scandal) and lighting Cuban cigars with hundred dollar bills, Rush. The pied piper.
The Tax Day Tea Party website features CNN "failing" while trying to get a story. She (the correspondent) presents the interviewee, with his kid in tow no less, with facts that the state of Illinois gave him a tax break, provided he makes under a quarter mil. Rather than answer the question, he babbles some frothy rant about Abe Lincoln wanting people to be free, blah, blah, blah. The poor woman almost gets hit with picket signs while trying to do her job. I love they took a shot at it being anti-CNN because Sean Hannity's troops were leading the rally. But come on, she is a liberal.
Read the comments on the page. Unbelievable. The wool over the eyes of everyone throwing stones from both sides has to be suffocating.
I weep for the future.
The sports feature
So my illustrious career as a sports writer (maybe) or writer in general is starting from humble beginnings. More accurately, started from humble beginnings from right here on this here blog. I'd like to think I have shown some development, especially since last fall in 2008 when my formal training began.
So the past few issues of Park University's newspaper, The Stylus, I've had the opportunity to write some pretty interesting pieces on some figures in our varoious athletic programs. I'm going to put both up on the blog here, but I'm posting my first one, well, first.
Hope you enjoy...
The cold damp atmosphere on a Friday afternoon on a mostly empty Park University campus is seeping it’s way into a mostly empty Breckon Sports Center. No games, no practice, just employees of the athletic department waiting out the rest of an anxious Friday afternoon.
Through the front doors of the arena strides Jon Meriwether with the cool confidence of a student athlete who has walked into the dual domed structure a thousand times. The last three years of Meriweather’s life have been spent playing, practicing, dazzling, working out and building a reputation as one of the best players to lace up and take the court on the Pirates men’s basketball squad.
Believing in your own press in this day in age of ESPN and total media saturation are easy trappings. Shining yourself on for cameras and scouts is as expected as calling for press conferences to announce your new hip-hop album or endorsing Chevy Trucks. The life of an amateur athlete, especially in the NAIA, allows for it’s players to be refreshingly down to Earth.
“To be honest the thought never crossed my mind,” Meriwether recalls. “It is sort of weird to me to think of myself as one of those guys. A top player. When I was told about being seen in that way, I was wondering if you had the right guy.”
For a player just named to the NAIA Division I All-American second team, you might think modesty would be as rare as a ray of sunshine breaking through the overcast sky outside. But the more you talk with and get to know Jon Meriwether the person, as opposed to Jon Meriweather’s stat sheet, you rapidly learn he would rather talk about his teammates, past and present, as opposed to himself.
“Being humble came straight from my Dad,” Meriwether said. “He was just that way when I was growing up.”
Let’s play a little bit of catch up here, Joe Meriwether was a 10 year veteran in the NBA and played from Madison Square Garden to The Summit in Houston, Texas and some points in between. Letting Jon in on what he accomplished during his prime wasn’t something that could be found without a little research.
“When I got a little older I was like, ‘why didn’t you tell me?’ He was a monster in his day and his stats were unbelievable,” Meriwether said. “I thought it was incredible but he would always tell me that he was just playing ball.”
Being a coach’s kid is never easy. At least not for a majority of kids that grow up in homes consumed by sports. That other one percent was the Meriweather home. Being the son of an NBA player and college coach would add even more pressure. But not in this case. To the contrary, pressure is the last word he would even think about coming of age at home.
“Even from early on, I wanted to do it,” Meriweather said. “I would be tired after games and would want to just go home, but I would go back into the gym to work on my shot. I never felt that pressure from my Dad. I just always liked basketball and wanted to be good. I was just playing.”
Even when leaving Division I Morgan State University, the senior Meriweather did not fret and did not dress his son down for leaving the game so unceremoniously.
“At that point it was all my choice,” Meriweather said. “When I was off for a year and a half, my Dad didn’t even suggest that I go back to playing. I missed it. It was my decision to come back.”
Sitting behind Coach Jason Kline’s desk he doesn’t seem uncomfortable in the least. A player just entering into a program might be a little apprehensive to be perched with ease at his coach’s desk, but not Meriwether. Being in a position of leadership is not foreign territory.
“We all seem to know our roles on this team,” Meriwether said. “Our jobs are defined. We help each other out and make up for what each of us might lack individually as a team and a family. That’s something that we have tried to instill in the younger players on this team.”
Meriwether points to a picture on the grey office wall to shift the focus away from himself and back to other players he sees as his mentors and an inspiration to his game.
“Brandon Voorhees was the man,” Meriwether said. Leaning back in his coach’s chair, a wry smile crosses his face as he recalls some of the NAIA All-American’s on court exploits. “We were on the road and we were down with only a few minutes to go in the game. We sort of just let B take over. He was white as a ghost and we knew he was tired, but he kept going and going. We won that game because of him, but after the game you wouldn’t have known. He didn’t say a word and just kept it to himself, rather than going on and on about it.”
Lessons in sports are a dime a dozen, but those are generic notions you read about on a daily basis. Stories and moments in sports are wrought and sometimes stretched to the point of being a tall tale, like Paul Bunyan or passing in the NBA. Most wouldn’t know it, but it’s the things we as spectators miss that actually make a difference to the young men and women taking the field or running on to the court.
“After seeing what Brandon went through that night,” Meriwether said as he pauses before revealing his thoughts. “It was truly amazing to watch. I learned then that is what it takes to be a good or even great player. You have to leave it all out there.”
Establishing yourself in one place is a goal most people strive to achieve. Having to pack up and do it every few years to sail away into unfamiliar territory is something that Meriweather is becoming accustomed to. He has his eye on the big picture, but he refuses to leave the dream behind.
“I’d like to follow Brandon over to Europe and try out over there and eventually play in the NBA like my Dad,” Meriweather said. “Right now it’s just hard thinking about leaving and not knowing exactly what the game has in store for me right now.
At the end of the day, this is something that every athlete faces.”
There is a plan B though, but it’s one of those ‘break in case of emergency’ type of things. Not to say what Meriweather has planned for the future would be any less rewarding, it’s just when boys draw up plays in the sand, or in the palm of their hands with the rest of their friends, you don’t see yourself behind a desk. It is not the dream. The dream is playing for the love of a game as long as possible, because deep down you know one day it will be gone.
“It is sad, don’t get me wrong,” Meriweather said. “You grow up living your life and centering it around basketball, knowing that it won’t be there in the same way I’ve known all my life will be a challenge. But that’s just life, you have to grow up and readjust. You just have to go out and attack it and not let it attack you.”
Finding a parallel between life and sports isn’t challenging. Applying it and weaving the two together is the accomplishment. Jon Meriweather will go down as one of the best players to grace the court at Park, this much is easy to see. But there has to be more out there than stats and awards and national recognition. Meriweather has recognized that. He knows he’s a great player, and so do most people, but he knows making everyone else around you better on and off the court is what excellence is all about, and the most important lesson learned.
So the past few issues of Park University's newspaper, The Stylus, I've had the opportunity to write some pretty interesting pieces on some figures in our varoious athletic programs. I'm going to put both up on the blog here, but I'm posting my first one, well, first.
Hope you enjoy...
The cold damp atmosphere on a Friday afternoon on a mostly empty Park University campus is seeping it’s way into a mostly empty Breckon Sports Center. No games, no practice, just employees of the athletic department waiting out the rest of an anxious Friday afternoon.
Through the front doors of the arena strides Jon Meriwether with the cool confidence of a student athlete who has walked into the dual domed structure a thousand times. The last three years of Meriweather’s life have been spent playing, practicing, dazzling, working out and building a reputation as one of the best players to lace up and take the court on the Pirates men’s basketball squad.
Believing in your own press in this day in age of ESPN and total media saturation are easy trappings. Shining yourself on for cameras and scouts is as expected as calling for press conferences to announce your new hip-hop album or endorsing Chevy Trucks. The life of an amateur athlete, especially in the NAIA, allows for it’s players to be refreshingly down to Earth.
“To be honest the thought never crossed my mind,” Meriwether recalls. “It is sort of weird to me to think of myself as one of those guys. A top player. When I was told about being seen in that way, I was wondering if you had the right guy.”
For a player just named to the NAIA Division I All-American second team, you might think modesty would be as rare as a ray of sunshine breaking through the overcast sky outside. But the more you talk with and get to know Jon Meriwether the person, as opposed to Jon Meriweather’s stat sheet, you rapidly learn he would rather talk about his teammates, past and present, as opposed to himself.
“Being humble came straight from my Dad,” Meriwether said. “He was just that way when I was growing up.”
Let’s play a little bit of catch up here, Joe Meriwether was a 10 year veteran in the NBA and played from Madison Square Garden to The Summit in Houston, Texas and some points in between. Letting Jon in on what he accomplished during his prime wasn’t something that could be found without a little research.
“When I got a little older I was like, ‘why didn’t you tell me?’ He was a monster in his day and his stats were unbelievable,” Meriwether said. “I thought it was incredible but he would always tell me that he was just playing ball.”
Being a coach’s kid is never easy. At least not for a majority of kids that grow up in homes consumed by sports. That other one percent was the Meriweather home. Being the son of an NBA player and college coach would add even more pressure. But not in this case. To the contrary, pressure is the last word he would even think about coming of age at home.
“Even from early on, I wanted to do it,” Meriweather said. “I would be tired after games and would want to just go home, but I would go back into the gym to work on my shot. I never felt that pressure from my Dad. I just always liked basketball and wanted to be good. I was just playing.”
Even when leaving Division I Morgan State University, the senior Meriweather did not fret and did not dress his son down for leaving the game so unceremoniously.
“At that point it was all my choice,” Meriweather said. “When I was off for a year and a half, my Dad didn’t even suggest that I go back to playing. I missed it. It was my decision to come back.”
Sitting behind Coach Jason Kline’s desk he doesn’t seem uncomfortable in the least. A player just entering into a program might be a little apprehensive to be perched with ease at his coach’s desk, but not Meriwether. Being in a position of leadership is not foreign territory.
“We all seem to know our roles on this team,” Meriwether said. “Our jobs are defined. We help each other out and make up for what each of us might lack individually as a team and a family. That’s something that we have tried to instill in the younger players on this team.”
Meriwether points to a picture on the grey office wall to shift the focus away from himself and back to other players he sees as his mentors and an inspiration to his game.
“Brandon Voorhees was the man,” Meriwether said. Leaning back in his coach’s chair, a wry smile crosses his face as he recalls some of the NAIA All-American’s on court exploits. “We were on the road and we were down with only a few minutes to go in the game. We sort of just let B take over. He was white as a ghost and we knew he was tired, but he kept going and going. We won that game because of him, but after the game you wouldn’t have known. He didn’t say a word and just kept it to himself, rather than going on and on about it.”
Lessons in sports are a dime a dozen, but those are generic notions you read about on a daily basis. Stories and moments in sports are wrought and sometimes stretched to the point of being a tall tale, like Paul Bunyan or passing in the NBA. Most wouldn’t know it, but it’s the things we as spectators miss that actually make a difference to the young men and women taking the field or running on to the court.
“After seeing what Brandon went through that night,” Meriwether said as he pauses before revealing his thoughts. “It was truly amazing to watch. I learned then that is what it takes to be a good or even great player. You have to leave it all out there.”
Establishing yourself in one place is a goal most people strive to achieve. Having to pack up and do it every few years to sail away into unfamiliar territory is something that Meriweather is becoming accustomed to. He has his eye on the big picture, but he refuses to leave the dream behind.
“I’d like to follow Brandon over to Europe and try out over there and eventually play in the NBA like my Dad,” Meriweather said. “Right now it’s just hard thinking about leaving and not knowing exactly what the game has in store for me right now.
At the end of the day, this is something that every athlete faces.”
There is a plan B though, but it’s one of those ‘break in case of emergency’ type of things. Not to say what Meriweather has planned for the future would be any less rewarding, it’s just when boys draw up plays in the sand, or in the palm of their hands with the rest of their friends, you don’t see yourself behind a desk. It is not the dream. The dream is playing for the love of a game as long as possible, because deep down you know one day it will be gone.
“It is sad, don’t get me wrong,” Meriweather said. “You grow up living your life and centering it around basketball, knowing that it won’t be there in the same way I’ve known all my life will be a challenge. But that’s just life, you have to grow up and readjust. You just have to go out and attack it and not let it attack you.”
Finding a parallel between life and sports isn’t challenging. Applying it and weaving the two together is the accomplishment. Jon Meriweather will go down as one of the best players to grace the court at Park, this much is easy to see. But there has to be more out there than stats and awards and national recognition. Meriweather has recognized that. He knows he’s a great player, and so do most people, but he knows making everyone else around you better on and off the court is what excellence is all about, and the most important lesson learned.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Not going to the dogs
I know the last few posts have been present and future dog related. I've been short on time and therefore, short on content. Never fear the semester is winding down. However I will be spending more time over on my Red Sox blog considering opening week is underway and my MLB.TV subscription is being taken full advantage of.
I've also finished reading "The Hot House: Life Inside Leavenworth Prison." Good book for about eight bucks new in paperback or less at your local used book store. Listening to SModcasts, breaking in my new Red Sox and Cincinnati Reds hats and figuring out how we are going to facilitate another dog.
We took delivery of our riding lawn mower today. One big problem is that the transmission will not stay engaged. So, getting it replaced and wheeling and dealing my way into a better model with a warranty is how I spent my afternoon.
Our LCD TV has been on the fritz, so Steph and I were disappointed we didn't get to watch the Royals game in HD. We went out and enjoyed the nice day and walked our dog instead. My Mom got a tattoo. Steph and I went to dinner at 54th Street Grill (meh) and then came home and read a book and watch my Sox give another toothless performance from the plate.
We closed out the night watching The Soup and 30 Rock in bed. Since 11 o'clock is much too early, I came into the office and watched the Braves and Nationals then the Padres and Giants. Then, I downloaded some blues, but not because of what went on during my good Friday.
This was the extent of my day.
I've also finished reading "The Hot House: Life Inside Leavenworth Prison." Good book for about eight bucks new in paperback or less at your local used book store. Listening to SModcasts, breaking in my new Red Sox and Cincinnati Reds hats and figuring out how we are going to facilitate another dog.
We took delivery of our riding lawn mower today. One big problem is that the transmission will not stay engaged. So, getting it replaced and wheeling and dealing my way into a better model with a warranty is how I spent my afternoon.
Our LCD TV has been on the fritz, so Steph and I were disappointed we didn't get to watch the Royals game in HD. We went out and enjoyed the nice day and walked our dog instead. My Mom got a tattoo. Steph and I went to dinner at 54th Street Grill (meh) and then came home and read a book and watch my Sox give another toothless performance from the plate.
We closed out the night watching The Soup and 30 Rock in bed. Since 11 o'clock is much too early, I came into the office and watched the Braves and Nationals then the Padres and Giants. Then, I downloaded some blues, but not because of what went on during my good Friday.
This was the extent of my day.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Miss Moo
So a few weeks back I purchased a new laptop with Windows Vista on it. I saw a commercial where some young girl took pictures and uploaded them to her computer using the same operating system. I figured I could at least try and make a slideshow. Thankfully, I was able to top the young tike from the Microsoft ad.
It's a little raw since it's the first, well, anything I've ever really put together. I'm sure they will be a reimagining of this someday when I'm a little better at this. Hope you enjoy.
Also, when I transferred it to YouTube, it messed up the transitions for some reason, so it may look a tad pixelated, YouTube promised me that it's still processing and it will look better soon. You know I'll hold them to it..
It's a little raw since it's the first, well, anything I've ever really put together. I'm sure they will be a reimagining of this someday when I'm a little better at this. Hope you enjoy.
Also, when I transferred it to YouTube, it messed up the transitions for some reason, so it may look a tad pixelated, YouTube promised me that it's still processing and it will look better soon. You know I'll hold them to it..
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Hello, big world...
So my wife beat me to the punch, what else is new? So my post on April 1st was not a fool, we really have been looking into bringing another pooch into our home. In a few weeks, two week old Theodore Winston Swalley will enter our house, probably a little bigger than this. He's a Great Dane, or German Mastiff, and we hear they get quite large.
For those that don't read my wife's blog, here are the same exact photos she put on her page...and yes, the red collar is by design.
For those that don't read my wife's blog, here are the same exact photos she put on her page...and yes, the red collar is by design.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Great, wonderful, tremendous, fantastic...
Door to door salesmen are guys (or girls) that I love messing around with. I don't avoid answering the door, and I don't pretend that I'm not home. I enjoy talking to them and hearing their rundown of Brand X product. I usually don't buy anything.
Sometime in the fall, a couple guys were strolling our cul-de-sac selling AT&T U-verse. My wife and I despised our Comcast service, equipment, etc. So we were willing to give it all up for U-verse, that came highly recommended from a few of our friends. There was something I forgot to check into.
I'm an idiot. I mean, it was October after all. Baseball is a pretty big deal at that time, especially with the Sox in the playoffs. My mind must have been elsewhere. Looking for a new job, school, Nebraska football. Who knows.
It was supposed to be so awesome. HD DVR in our front room and every other room with the ability to watch recorded shows on the other two boxes we had in the office/man cave and our bedroom. More HD channels, and we'd be able to record more and watch TV at the same time. But despite the apparent awesomeness...
Come to find out that U-verse is about the only cable provider that doesn't carry the MLB Extra Innings package I get every single year. What the hell am I supposed to do when I come home at 12:30am from work? I want to watch the Padres and the Marlins, or the Mariners versus the Rangers.
I can always get MLB TV, which would be handy because I am on the go so much with my laptop, I know I'd be able to watch it quite a bit. But there is something awesome about opening up our big windows in our living room, pulling up some couch, and watching a game or two on a Sunday afternoon or a cool late spring night.
I'm going to miss that this season. AT&T better get their shit together.
Friday, March 27, 2009
You will see this movie, you will...
A long time ago, somewhere in the early 80's, my Grandfather who's face I don't recall but who's face I wear gave me this book. Teachers, family members and clergy always used to tell me I was a creative child. I had an "artist's vision." Well, maybe.
Never the less, I think this is one of the first books I really remember as a kid. It is one of those books that unlocks your imagination when you are young. Now as I approach 30, have a wife and a mortgage...
...the film adaptation could not have come at a better time.
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